Sunday, July 30, 2006

anyone can tell me when you know that you are in love??? cause i really wana know the answer..i really really really wana know the answer..so whoever knows the answer can you please jus tagged..please..

i wonder wat you are doing now..are you alright?? you were worried bout me that you din eat and now it is like my turn to worry bout you..haha.cant sleep..wana wait for your call.but i am very tired..really very tired..i hope i can be awake when you call me..i still got work tmr..hope i can see you..argh!!! i miss you..

zack
0056hrs
tmr got match..i dunno if you are going down..you got school..you said that you wana leave during break..but i dunno..i feel you should study la..but i know i will miss you..argh!!!today was nice yet not that nice..dunno la.let me blog bout wat has happened k?
friday...brought devon out to sim lim to meet you guys den after that we went to sentosa..gosh!send devon off den went to play frisbee.haha.okiez after that we went to pick my bro up and went to eat.den we went gaming and den we sent them home and we went back to stay at fiona house..heh.yupp.thats bout all la..haha
saturday...woke up early la..at like 8plus cause we had to send my bro to safra yishun cause he got competition..thats why we stayed at fiona's house la..so yea..after he finished we went to eat den we played under a void deck police and thieves and some other games..den we headed to ksc to play cs den command and conquer..den got a bit of drama from my mum and bro and i went to church.den went to my ah kong house to eat dnner den headed down to tamp to watch poc2 with them..haha.
really sorry for not telling you..really sorry.but i din see a need to.din know that things would be like that..really sorry..
den she asked me whether i allow her to go out and meet her fren and i was kinda happy la.cause it is like you know we not together yet she still asks me how i feel and all..like very nice like that la..heh..den she sent us home and went out la..taked to her on the phone till like late la..den after that den i went to sleep..
sunday..woke up in the morning to an empty house..called her and talked to her den i started doing some house work den after that mum came home..put down the phone and washed her car..den i went to suntec to eat lunch with my mum and bro and after that i went to her house..woke her up and den we went to fisherman village to eat den after that went to meet somemore people and den went to ksc to play pool for a while and i hadta go..
zack
0051hrs

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Have you ever felt so down, so sad, so disappointed yet filled with anger at the same time?well this is how I am feeling now..and it totally sucks.my mum hasn’t talk to me yet.but I know she will real soon..thanks a lot man..i know wat are the details and they suck..couldn’t get much sleep last night..was too sad and disappointed to sleep.the feeling inside me jus sucks..i wana let it all out.but i know I cant..and this sucks..

C: cant you see that you dun hafta remove me from the picture to get another chance? She has given you so many chances and yet you still screw them up..you have hurt her over and over and wana do good this time?thing is I dun think she can trust you anymore..even if it were to be me..i wouldn’t!! cause you fucking hell dun deserve it..you are so childish and possessive and a bloody attention seeker..i dun give a shit even if you start to dislike me I dun really care..if you really love her so much…
1. you wouldn’t be doing this
2. you would have cherish her right from the start
3. you wouldn’t have bad mouth her
4. you would let her be really happy.
But I guess you us cant do that cant you? You need her to be with you 24/7 isnt? You wan her to stick with you like glue and follow you everywhere you wana go…if you dun wana go den she also cant go right?? You wan all the attention from her isn’t?so wat if we are close? So wat? I may like her but is that of your business?? She is the one who is there for me..you are blood related to me and yet you dun give a fuck bout me..she was the one who was there and listen to me..it is obvious that I will be closer to her den you..it jus sucks to know that you did it..you are one pathetic asshole..i am serious..pardon my language but I cant help it..and yes..stop acting like you care bout me..cause I know you only care bout yourself…dun make me hate you more..i still wana try give you some respect for the fact that you are older den me..and you are related to me..please dun kill yourself in my mind..really dun..

M: you know that she is the one helping me and stuff..you know I am close to her..i am fucking telling you that I cant turn straight and I wont..i was a good girl ever since I got closer to her..now you are seriously goin to bring out the rebelliousness in me..i can assure you of that..you cant stop me from doing things that I wana and things that make me happy..you know you cant..if you think I am the middle person..think again. Were they even attached all this while? I dun think so..all that was happening all these while is some thick skin ass was hanging onto her for her life and staying with her..but they were not together..she was single and available and it is not so wrong for me to get close to someone I have been liking for 3 years…I so dun see your point in doing any of these thing..i can safely say that I will be very angry and disappointed and will rebel if you do any of those things you mention to her..i promise you that..

YOU: I am sorry for making you shed tears..i am sorry to make you sad..jus know that I really and true to you..i dun care wat people will say..i dun care wat others will think..i am really sorry..i hope that 21 years ld thing atil stays and all..i will grow up and change..i will study hard and all..save money for or future..i dun believe that she could do such stuff..i seriously will not be following any of the stupid things that my mum wana make me do..i am serous...

Jus in case all of you guys were wondering wat the hell is going on..let me tell yoy all a story..A and B are blood related..3years ago A met C for the first time and had a very big crush on C but the thing is B likes C too..and A somewat gave C up by encouraging B to go with C..den A got attached to someone else and time flies..now A jus went through a tough time and C was there for A..and yet while A was attached to someone..B has been teling A stuff bout C and those stuff weren’t at all..anyway to cut long story short..A’s mum is only allowing A to go out with C only once a week and A must go home early for the other days and no more staying over or whatever fucked up nonsense…


sorry all.not in the mood to blog anymore..maybe later or sth la..loves..

zack
054hrs