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2009-03-04T23:54:00.000-08:00

Won't Let You Fall - Fergie

I’ll never let you go
So, never let me go
I will be your journey
And you will be my road
Down the stormy path
Love will never come to pass
It will be an anchor
Although the winds may blow

And through the depths of high and low
Wherever you will go, I’ll follow
To the end, back again
You know

Won’t let you fall
Fall out of love
‘Cause together we’ll be holding on
‘Cause all we have is us
Won’t let you go
Go away again
Because life don’t mean nothing at all
If I don’t have your love

I will dry your tears
Take away your fears
Let me be your shelter
Your heart is safe in here
So beautiful and pure
There’s nothing I would not endure
Oh, love as got me blinded
I see it all so clear

And through the depths of high and low
Wherever you will go, I’ll follow
To the end, back again
You know

Won’t let you fall
Fall out of love
‘Cause together we’ll be holding on
‘Cause all we have is us
Won’t let you go
Go away again
Because life don’t mean nothing at all
If I don’t have your love

I’m down for you for whatever
Anything you going through
What’s mine is yours
Every little thing
I got you
Even when winds will change
Come smashing down and crashing on you

Won’t let you fall
Fall out of love
‘Cause together we’ll be holding on
‘Cause all we have is us
Won’t let you go
Go away again
Because life don’t mean nothing at all
If I don’t have your love

Such a sweet song...

A nice and sweet song for someone special...

My someone special...

I won't let you fall...ever...

2008-12-10T00:21:00.000-08:00

hmm...decided to blog cos SHORTYZ said that it was dead..haha.
Jus came back from Kuching...wont recommend it to anyone to go at all..unless you wan a really quiet place with nothing to do...nothing to eat after 10pm...shopping at their biggest shopping centre which was smaller den Parkway Parade..

Went there for 1 day den headed down to their beach...Damai Beach Resort for another night before heading back to Kuching.. i thought the beach resort was gonna be fun but I was wrong.. me and my bro got bored after 30 mins..there was no activities at all!! we tot of swimming in the beach but...there were signs like..Beware of Jellyfish and Catfish.. so we went to the swimming pool...jumped in and we were like "ok...wat to do now?"

There was also a visit to their Cultural Village...it was interesting..got to see all the olden houses and how they used to live..we had our private tour guide...my mother. well..she was from that era so she explain to us how those gadgets work...Bro and me tried the blowpipe...it wasnt as hard as it looks..jus that the blowpipe is extremely heavy..Doubt one will be able to last 4 arrows...

Pics should be up soon...take care all...for now...i gotta save up about $200 ~ $300...hahahhahaha

2008-08-07T19:10:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!!
I'M SO HAPPY...SO SO HAPPY
I'M SO HAPPY...SO SO HAPPY
CAN'T TELL YOU WHY...BUT...
I'M SO HAPPY...SO SO HAPPY
OK...BYEEEEEEE!!

oh yea...happy eve of national day..happy beijing olympic day...HAPPY (8th August)080808 DAY!!!

i'm back

2008-06-17T19:38:00.000-07:00

Am sitting in the damn school library now...2 of my group mates are watching show and the other 2 are apparantly going to be late...we were supposed to meet at 1000hrs but it is 1040hrs now and they are still not here...oh wells.

had lots of fun on monday...went out with my bro and gang...played rounders, soccer, slipper game and swam at sentosa...funny things happen and there was much laughter..for instance, lenny got hit on the head by the ball when playing rounders..swear this babe is the best!! it was a damn good throw..of course nobody can beat cher hui man!!! she got lots of hidden talent...her aiming is damn good..haha...

the outing ended after we watched the show Get Smart...it was like a private charity function in vivocity...it is something like a world premiere of the show...the show is 10times funnier den mr bean man!!! highly recommend if you need a good laugh..

hopefully all things go well and we can all proceed for another outing before their school holiday ends...if they can all make it den it will be damn cool and fun man...cant wait!

met shawn at my grandpa's hse...he is going to hong kong for 2 months...hmmm..hope he has a nice and safe trip...he is a damn nice person man..all the good times we had when we were young, the stayovers, supper late at night, playing his PS 1 & 2 and looking after Chester when he was young...HE IS THE BEST COUSIN I HAVE MAN!!!

Video

2008-04-08T01:37:00.000-07:00

Uploaded some videos in my blog....should check out the 2nd video...its suitable when you feel bored and need something to laugh at...i only have got 3 more days of TEP attachment and then i am free and woohoo!!! okies...should go now..tata

Holiday

2008-04-04T04:33:00.000-07:00

came back from my holiday with babe...went to bangkok. was super fun...we had the best time..went to the weekend market and bought alot of things. couldnt tahan man!! they jus left the puppies in an open cage and allowed anyone to touch them..there were like so many of them plus they all look so cute. there was 3 doggies that reminded us of the 3 rascals we had at home..there were also squirrels for sale..baby squirrels..babe wanted to bring one back man!! haha..cant blame her man! they were all so adorable..
if u dun think that watever i said above was cute...close ur eyes and imagine..alot of baby bunnies in its cages....they were all wearing a cute dress each...man!!! hopefully the pics will be up soon..
we went for many massages and foot reflexology...shiok like dunno wat..haha..den also we went to the floating market..it was an interesting experience...the best thing of all was that we bought mangoes and oooohhhh lala...it tastes so nice and delicious that one was not enough....wish we had bought more...

Benefits In Life...

2008-03-28T01:16:00.000-07:00

Its good when one has a mode of transportation. Instead of waking up 2 hours before school starts, i get to wake up 1 hour before school start. I got an extra hour of sleep! No need to sleep and squeez in buses, smelling all the stinky people. Although now I still have got my P plate on...no choice will kana bullied on the road. haha..well as someone has told me. Better to protect the car den to action. So yea, doesnt really matter.

Driving on the road isnt as easy as people think it is...you gotta be extra careful and alert. It is not the same as when u are in the practise car, cos this time there is no more extra break on the passenger side. All the lives of your passengers are in your hands. Plus, all the other motorists are not that friendly, there are some show offs and arrogant people.. Therefore, those that think that they can drive damn good or watever shit. Think again. Anyways, action speaks louder than words...so you will know when u start driving.(that is if you ever..hahaha)

Am currently now in the ending of the 7th week of gym, jus 2 more weeks and i get a break! woohoo!!! den i will be back to studying. think i am gonna miss the gym though. cos it has been great fun most of the times.
Oh yes! dun think i have mentioned that my next sem is going to be super fun..cos my bestest of all best friends is coming to my school!!! hahah..yes! we have been best friends since primary 1..that is like 12 years ago. She is also going to be in Sports and Wellness!! thats cool. Cos i know that she a good fren. not like some people i know, Dun wish to mention names here...you know who you all are...

ok...i wana go now...shall go surf the net or do something else.

Life's Good...

2008-03-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

well well...wat can i say?? life is good and is getting better..
Babe got a new car..woohoo!! its the sexy swift. the power of the car is damn good..BUT too bad i cant feeling racer yet!! haha..soon la babe..soon..
babe and i went for the zouk party with aneeta, kavern and marissa...met ju and akira there. babe drank 2 glasses of red wine. hope she enjoyed herself whenever she goes clubbing from now on..cos she doesnt have to drive anymore..for I shall take over..hahaha..went back home at about 2 plus..
today is babe's papa's birthday...happy birthday papa!! enjoy your dinner later. hopefully i will blog again soon..but i am like that laziest person on earth..haha..wat can i do?? oh wells..got nothing much to say already..bye bye all..

cant stand all the hypocrites...you know you are...dun worry. revenge is sweet and sooner or later it will come back to you...wat goes around comes around..

2008-01-02T18:32:00.000-08:00

First of all, I would like to wish everyone a very Happy New Year...I believe that 2008 is going to be a good year..because it is going to be the year of the Rat soon and that means that the snake's luck is going to change and be better..which means that Babe and I will be much luckier..hopefully we strike more 4D or something..hahah..I dun have to strike la..Babe strike is enough cos she and her mum has been taking care of me very nicely and I deeply appreciate it..
Hmmm...my new year resolution this year is....erm..actually I dunno wat it is also..wait till i have it figured out den I will tell all of you..anyways it is back to school for me so I will be online lesser now...pls dun expect a post anytime soon..hahah...take care all.

2007-12-26T05:21:00.000-08:00

went to holy family this x'mas with my 4th aunt...was sitting down and day dreaming...den suddenly it strike me, i suddenly pictured the last mass for my grandfather...tears almost came out. hmmm...its been a quite a little while since that day..oh wells..

went to nana's place on x'mas day, den to my mama's house...its saddening to know that my mama is not well..hope she gets better asap...

well..to all out there..merry xmas!

2007-11-26T21:32:00.000-08:00

been a busy busy week...whole weekend burnt...monday was super fun and nice..went to sentosa with babe, rich, his frens and teddy boy...we played rounders and basketball plus the idiotic st pats boys went to swim to the opposite island jus to take a look..anyways the whole day was well spent and damn fun...
but i swear some ppl have got no brains..or maybe dog sense...imagine ppl can walk pass ted and say,"so cute...i think it is a chihuahua." omg....hahah...and better still...some guy said that ted looks like a baby lion...haha..lame lor...oh wells..
anyways..it is back to work now..hopefully can go and enjoy again soon...

2007-11-13T21:24:00.000-08:00

You Raise Me Up
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up... to more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up... to more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
And I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up... to more than I can be.
You raise me up... to more than I can be.

this song will always remind me of my late-grandfather who lived a fulfilling life.
you will be missed dearly.

2007-10-29T21:54:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a nice day...came to school and den realise that i had a match and i din bring my stuff..went back to get my stuff and at the same time delivere lunch to babe...slacked a little while den headed back to school..signed out and den got ready for the match...

NYP vs NP...final score 1-0...oh wells..so NYP was 3rd and got the bronze medal yesterday...2 players down in the field. hope you guys get better real soon..guess i would have reached home after midnight if cikgu did not send me home...but lucky he did and i got back at 11 plus...

super tired even after i shower..babe cooked for me a bowl of damn nice noodles..had eggs, prawns and veg..tasted even better cos i was hungry and only ate an energy bar the whole day...THANKS BABE!!! =) finished everything and felt super full...

before i went to sleep...babe told me that the previous night i woke up at about 3am all of a sudden and said,"time for school already"..hahaha..swear know..duno wats happenin man..haha..so that was all and i knocked out at about 1am plus...

now am super tired...cos i got not enough sleep...i nid more sleep...ahhh!!!! thank goodness i can go back early today...see you all soon..

2007-10-28T21:26:00.000-07:00

erm..sorry the pics and videos are not up yet..haha..been a little bit busy lah..so wat has happened to me?
well..nothing much..been jus going to school..9am to 6pm daily..having long breaks for breakfast, lunch and teatime...my frens are fine, turned out much nicer than i expected..they are friendly and all..which is cool..heh heh
sunday was at vivocity..had some adidas women run...the event was not a very big event and i guess things were ok..received great news from Dexter(the adidas event co-ordinator)..we will be getting our 2nd set of clothes soon..woohoo!! more free adidas stuff..anyways, sunday we got free water bottle..got an extra one for babe...
next weekend is totally burned...saturday is the OSIM triathlon..wat i heard was that we will be starting at 5:30am till about 2pm...that is like 9 hrs..looking on the bright side, can claim 1 whole weekday off!! hahah! Sunday has got the Runner's Day Workshop...that maybe jus a few hours...so another few hours off..woohoo!!!
its much more fun to go and do the events den to stay in school..cos at least we have got something to do and time seems to pass faster..
thats all about school...Hit my backbone against the corner of the computer table that day, that babe very bad...haha..joking! instead of asking whether i ok..she started with :" you ah...always know......blah blah blah" ya la..i very clumsy..not my fault wat..hahah...so there is a scratch and i cant lean back or watsoever properly as it hurts...oh wells..must be because of more curses..
so everybody out there..all you mean people cursing...thank you very much..have a nice day..but remember this...Bad begets Bad...Karma...
tataz....
P.S hope your leg is not itchy anymore =)

2007-10-22T19:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's concert was damn nice...haha..my throat hurts now!! happening lah....Will.I.Am was funny...Fergie was ooh la la..haha..click five opened for them..sang Jenny ( Richie...we recorded the song for you) Wells...there will be pictures posted soon...hopefully some of the videos too..

Best song by Will.I.Am : I get it from my mama
Best Song by Fergie: Big Girls Don't Cry
Best Song by BEP: Every song!!! hahaha....

Fergie sang alot of her songs....London Brigde, Big Girls Don't Cry, Fergalicious, Glamourous...worth the money going for the concert lah...next time ah babe...we must go the best!!! haha...

Bloody hell...those in front got to shake fergie's hand!!! haha...anyways, heard from babe that last time they came down they did where is the love almost the same pattern...the lights went off and we used handphones to make light...super nice..

Those who din get to go...too bad lah...you missed out..haha...okiez. am going to go now...see you all later..bye!

2007-10-21T21:59:00.000-07:00

so yesterday was the first adidas event...the Great Eastern 10k women run...received a adidas shirt, shorts and shoes...woohoo!! more clothes to come in the next few events..hahaha..if we help in all the events till this SPT is over, we will be getting about 250+ per person...haha..

am waiting for someone to come meet me...i wana go eat lunch..wat should i eat? haha..last night i had spagetti..nice (as always!) and also salad..miss perfectionist had to make sure that everything was placed nicely..haha..but it taste good..

visited my ah kong in hospital yesterday, i dun know wat the hell the family is trying to do to him..pray that he gets better..

I CANT WAIT FOR LATER!!!! FERGIE!!!! hahah...pls sing london bridge!!! hahaha...or i get it from my mama...oooh yea!!!!! hahhaha....i swear that babe is going to get one experience that she will remember!! haha..its time to PARTY!!!!!!!!! Lets get it started.....

2007-10-15T18:34:00.000-07:00

am back in school...doing my TEP..it is like 9am to 6pm everyday..well cant wait for the weekend to come..anyways there is a new song and i am going to dedicate it to someone very special to me....hahahaha...eh! dun be thick skin...it is not you ok...haha..this is for my ***..

Clumsy by Fergie

Can't help it
The girl can't help it

First time
That I saw your eyes
Boy you looked right through me, mmmhmm
Play it cool
But I knew you knew
That cupid hit me, mmm mmm

You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you

Can't help it
The girl can't help it

Can't breath
When you touch me, see
Butterflies so crazy, mmm mmm
Whoa now, think I'm goin down
Friends don't know whats with me, mmm mmm

You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you

Can't help it
The girl can't help it

You know, this isn't the first time this has happened to me
This love sick thing I like serious relationships and a
A girl like me dont stay single for long
Cuz everytime a boyfriend and I break up
My world is crushed and I'm all alone
The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I'm back

Can't help it
The girl can't help it

You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you

So in love with you
So in love with you

2007-10-05T01:36:00.000-07:00

well...i did promise something about my holiday...but i have been very lazy to do anything so i guess that will have to wait..haha..

school is starting..managed to get to do my TEP this semester..ooh yeah! haha..oops.forgot to blog when my exam results came out..i passed all of my subjects man!!!! proved all those people who thought that i cant make it wrong..so now they have not much things to say anymore..boohoohoo!

IVP is coming up...should get my ass back to the field and start training..thinking about things, funny how people stop you from doing something you really like..den now bugs you to go back and continue.. Is it cause when the person stopped you, the competition was not school-based? and now...the IVP is school-based and only restricted for school players? well..doesnt really matter to me...I am jus going to enjoy the game and play my best in all the mathes that I will be playing for the school. But sad to say that...soccer is no longer the main priority in my life anymore...nowadays, I feel that I can do without soccer. Hopefully, the love of the game comes back...well..shall go now...tata.zzz

2007-09-13T01:23:00.000-07:00

well well well...luck is really shining down on babe..she strike again!! woohoo!!think i will get another treat?? the last time she brought me to eat steamboat at marina...but nvm, i dun need any treats after all she has been really looking after me and yet she doesnt expect anything in return...wat can i say? she is a nice person with a heart of gold. she is too nice till ppl tend to make use and take advantage of her...so this is to all of you who bully my babe...u all better watch out..cos i'm her new bodyguard.
been sick, cos of all the burning and stuff...needed to bring my inhaler around. now my throat is sore and my voice is super funny..babe said that my voice broke and i sound like my bro..hahah..wat only..but..am getting better cos someone keeps forcing me to drink water and drink water and drink water...eeeeee!!!!
life on the whole is very very nice so far...in fact, its been marvellous. went for a short trip but wont talk about it now...shall keep you guys in suspense...haha..ok.i wana play maple now..bye all!!!

2007-09-03T09:30:00.000-07:00

guess luck is really shining down on me now...cause i felt that my exams went well, actually watever is happening or watever i am doing now seems to be doing well..babe is also very happy. of cos she will be happy..cos she strike! haha...good for her. she deserves it...so do i!!! i mean the treat that she will give me...hahaha..like real onli..haha.

so today something great happened..am so happy..hahaha..it really shows that luck has turned, the triumph cards are in my hands now...oh yes!! thats the way uh-huh uh-huh..i like it uh-huh uh-huh...

only thing now is that the stupid maple is not working....oh wells, talking about that, the character has became a ICE, LIGHTNING WIZARD!!! oh yea!!!! thats wat i'm talking about....haha

luck is shining on me cos all the BAD STUFF are out of my life now. this shows that god have eyes...

2007-09-03T04:18:00.000-07:00

life cant get any more happening and satisfying...its my holiday now and am relaxing at home.I have been having the time of my life, playing maple...now the character is coming to the 2nd job advancement!! woohoo!!!

apart from playing maple, i have also been watching lots of shows...esp scary ones!! i pity babe cause she has to watch it with me and get frighten by my jumpings when the scary part comes. haha.

Teddy has become my follower man! haha..that cute little boy knows how to dudu although you have to repeat 10million times before he does anything...but he is still learning man! give him a break!!

however, the best part of all is that someone cooks man!!! And I get to taste all the delicious food...even though it was jus the first time she made the food, it was very tasty. thinking about it now is making my mouth water..yum yum!! sambal prawns, pineapple prawns, oxtail, spagetti, porridge, yellow curry.There will be many more to come, like black pepper beef, devil curry and so on lah....

Recently we baked tarts together, shortz came over and helped. told shortz not to think of me when she was kneeding the dough cause it wont make her angry but instead happy, den that mangkok laughed! wat only...plus the DVDs she lend us...alamak!!! now i know wat type of show she likes lah...hahaha..anyways the tarts turned out nice man!!! too bad whoever is reading wont get a chance to try it...cause i will finish them all up...heh.

its a pity that people are making a fool of themselves and not knowing it, doesnt matter how it seems now, wat matters is who gets the last laugh!

2007-08-27T10:25:00.000-07:00

Exams are finally over...now i am enjoying my holidays...finally went back to my soccer! went for the match against Bishan Arsenal 'b' but din get to play...perhaps soons i get to play, i hope!

anyways, i am utterly disgusted with some people, i am not going to mention names as they will know who they are for themselves.
Firstly, they only come to you and find you when they need your help. other den that, they will seem to have disappeared. They also like to play you out, and last minute cancel watever plans they have with you.
Secondly, they blame people for their own doings. They even try to threaten you, for example, they wana get your mum involve. As it is, its not like as though they dun know wat hell your mum has been causing for you.
Oh wells, its not like as though i am going to suffer a great loss or something if you dun wana keep in contact. Cause in the first place i have long ago started hating you. If it was not for babe who was ill and we had to keep in contact so as to help her, i wouldnt even bother talk to you. Dun think that you have been forgiven or anything, cause truth is you are not! So please dun be so thick-skinned. Actually thinking of things, i feel that you are very ungrateful. Babe has helped you so much and all yet you can do these things to her. Say all kinds og bullshit and wat nots. Go ahead and Get lost. Cause you are not needed and welcome in any of our lives.
I wan you to know that when the day comes that you are useless and ur girlfren gets sick of your lies and cheating and leaves you, you CANT turn to me for help. I dun care if you are begging at my feet or watever, just know that i wont help you.
So SAIYONARA...SO LONG SUCKER!!!

2007-07-25T23:14:00.002-07:00

Creepy things have been happening recently...but last night was the best man! Hair standing experience. haha...so here it goes.
4am in the morning...2 hungry people went to the kitchen to find some food. they decided to eat packet mee..so i was at the stove watching over the water and stuff, while babe was at the sink peeling prawns. when the water was boiling, i put the noodles into the pot and wanted to cover on the pot but it was too full and so i placed the cover on the table.(the cover was tilted) den i was watching over the fire and the noodles, when suddenly....

babe: did you put the cover like that?

me: (din even bother looking at the cover) why?

babe: nothing

me: (turns to look at the cover) no. i din.

and there was silence

well, here's wat i saw. the cover was on the table, at the same spot BUT it was not tilted, it was straight up. feeling something amiss, felt weird but act cool. hahah.finished cooking and all den went to the room to eat. after eating....

babe: you know wat happened right?
me: ya...i din put the cover standing up.
babe: i know. i saw it suddenly from tilting position moved to the standing up.

ok..so something was beside me. scary or wat...hahah..ok..i shall go now.
hopefully no more spooky stuff already!!

2007-07-23T10:17:00.000-07:00

am back in school again...it kinda sucks big time now!!
school is school, your lecturers are jus your lecturers. why must they get involved in my personal life? wat has anything going on outside my school life got to do with my studies? in wat way will it affect my studies? so i was on mc and missed classes,that doesnt mean that i am totally not fit to take the examination. heard of catching up and self study? all your lame excuses...i know wat you are trying to do and who is the damn mastermind behind all these.
it makes no sense. so wat if i work part time? does it mean that it is going to affect my studies? No!! it doesn't. but who the hell cares? cause that is wat you think...jus because i am able to survive now and that i dun need you that's why you are making life a living hell for me!
Think about it...since when were you there? since when did i ever lean on you for help? you made me become very independent..cos money is everything to you! All you ever did was give me my allowance( which was very little to survive on), you were not there to watch over me, you were not there to settle my meals or maybe everything had to be done to your convenience. when you were so called "there for me", i also had a part time job. my food,activities,handphone bills,transport fares and many many more was settled by me. so wats the difference now? i dun get it!
fuck the counselling that you wan me to go, its not going to change anything. wats with the forcing of me talkin her? jus so that i can see a fox in sheep clothing? she can win the grammy awards and all kinds of awards for best actress!!
the terms and conditions that i am facing now...wat the hell? reporting to you guys once every week? no soccer until my exam is over?
oh watever...i dun really care about your terms and conditions, you wan me to do it, i will. but i wont listen to everything..cos talking to her ain't gonna happen, certainly not to be under the dame roof. you all can try to force me but i suggest you give up, cause all your energy will be wasted.

2007-06-27T22:21:00.000-07:00

am back in school...after 2 weeks of fulfilling holiday...i went to KRABI with the one and only Fiona, my current holiday partner! flew there by Tiger Airways, it was my first time that i entered budget terminal and take a flight from there. It was all about the same except that we had to walk up the plane.
Anyways, the trip was good on the whole. we went to see the 4 islands, snorkelling, rafting, elephant trekking, ox-carting, ATV and lots more....wanted to post some pics up but the website is giving a problem. you wan to see pic? den jus go to view Fiona's or my friendster profile..After we touch down, we went to Zouk to see the preview for the Butch Hunt 2007.
Wats up with people these days man? they will look at you(you know like how you look at someone when you check the person out) non-stop, den when it finally irritates you. You look back at the person, and it is funny how they start hugging and holding their partner and giving kisses all..these people need to GROW UP man!! I am younger den you but I think i act more maturely den you! GOSH!
My holiday partner fell sick and den I fell sick, so it was the sickly 2 of us, having fever and cough and spitting out phlemgh with blood. Lying in bed most of the time, watching tv and den sleeping...It was comforting that there was someone who lies by your side when you are sick. And even more comforting that there is someone else who cant taste anything, food and drinks were tasteless!! hahahaha....
Why should I let anything affect me when my life now is making me happy? doesnt matter wat has happened anymore, doesnt matter wat has made me unhappy before. All that matters now is that I am happy and life is great. wat more can i ask for when everything that is happening to me now is the best thing that can ever happen to me. Finding true love is a blessing....and i am blessed.

2007-05-16T22:49:00.000-07:00

life goes on no matter wat...whether it is sad or happy..so its best to make sure that you live happily, dun bother wat others do to you...cos they always think that they are in the right..anyways life is much much better now...well it is so much better den last time...currently like this song...nice lyrics...nice meaning for my special someone...

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we'd last forever
I feel I'm hopin' and prayin
'Things between us don't get better
Men steady comin' after you
Women steady comin' after me
Seem like everybody wanna go for self
And don't wanna respect boundaries
Tellin' you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secrets
I held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I'ma have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I been actin' lately
Has been off the wall
Especially toward you
Puttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything I been doin'
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't you
Ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Oh oh oh oh oh
Cause I got you
Cause I got you
Ooooh
Cause I got you babe
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

2007-05-02T19:25:00.000-07:00

wat can i say? life is good....am a happy person...a much much happier person now..ooh yea! heh heh heh...shall go now...heh heh...

2007-04-16T20:16:00.000-07:00

my internet is down...so i can get online that easily...so pardon me for not blogging...
life is the same..nothing much has changed...been busy with soccer, club crawl....
has anyone felt your heart harden an it keeps hardening till a point where you dun feel sad or watever by things that used to hurt you so much...but wat the fuck? who cares?
please dun mind me...i am not in the right state of mind right now..so yea..should go now.bye

2007-02-26T03:19:00.000-08:00

sorry for not blogging...wont be coming online that often for the time being...busy study for my exams.. yupp. i am studying...its 3 am in the morning but i got a paper tmr and i still have 3 lectures to cover...taking a short break now...so today i went to study with my classmates...from 3pm till 7pm..non-stop...den we decided to take a break...went to the arcade..watched them play house of the dead 4...laughed at their reactions and how they panicked...den they played the video games...some vitual fighter thing...its funny how they both have the same reaction jus that they used different words...laughed and made fun of them...today was well spent...i studied hard and had enough fun...

basically was watching sex in the city with my mum and it was about true love...den it crossed my mind..
is there really only one true love? would there be a second chance if you blew your first with the one you love? does true love always end up together? is there really such a thing as a fairy tale ending in life?

haha...ok i gotta go now...will be back soon i hope! after 1st march....

2007-02-21T03:13:00.000-08:00

yes...i am finally 18!! at a legal age to do stuff already!!! so who is on for clubbing man?? hahaha..please pardon me if i am abit extra hyper today...it is cause i swear i had the best birthday ever!!! i am very happy...so this is basically a thank you entry....

thank you...emil, yana, ziq, aien and Q for your birthday wishes...and especially to my 3 sweethearts...thanks for the necklace!!! oh my gosh!!!!!! you guys are total genius man!!! you actually bought the one that i was eyeing and waiting to bring my bro to see it!!! hahaha....thank you all so much..

to all my whooshies out there....thank you all so much for making it down to my place...to those who did not manage to come..its alright!!! but thanks for your wishes......those who went bowling, hope you guys had a nice and fun time...the dares were super crap and funny...but wats life without laughter?? haha...those who missed out bowling...too bad!! haha...you guys missed out the laughter and wat more...a free game!!! haha.....as i said before i left, i wasnt looking forward to my birthday...but you guys, YOU GUYS!!! made is a very nice one...i am really happy..really...from the bottom of my heart..thank you all so much...friends 4ever!!! and my whooshies are a totally special bunch of people to me...eh! they are not jus people...they are like my sisters and 'brothers'...my family!!!

p.s thanks for the super many....sexy sexy habba habba underwears....will show it to you all when i wear them lah...i know it is a must...so yea...

and finally a big thanks to the following ppl....

-shaf

-yani

-marsha

-afie

-sri

-aien

-yana

-emil

-Q

-ziq

-bong

-shawn

-Rae

-adeline

-hanis

-hidayah

-naj

-lulu

-raul

-dee

-fateha

-shida

-sly

-fil

-izyan

-zil

-rose

-wati

-nadiah

if i missed out your name...i am very sorry...i din mean...jus that i cant think of anymore at the moment....heh

so now, birthday is over, exams are coming...so its time to study!! and yea...look forward to 8th March....cause i am going to get my post birthday surprise from someone special...haha..oh yes! you know who you are...thanks for the wishes too!! take care and be happy...

2007-02-19T02:25:00.000-08:00

somehow this year, new year seems so different...so boring. woke up and started visiting all the way....den went to my grandpa house. me and bro went down, he played soccer den met his girlfren while i stayed under a block and studied!! yes, i studied on the 1st day of chinese new year...and yes!! zara studies!! haha...

finally after hours, we went back up and den talked a bit den left for home...was supposed to dispose the rat's body once i reached home...but it was gone!! den found a baby rat in my mum's room..got rid of it..since my sis boyfren came to our house, and we couldnt take the stupid rats anymore....we caught the last and final rat!! and i whacked it to death...yes i know i am cruel...but it is a rat that shits everywhere, giving us more work to do....eats our food, making us waste money buying new ones...leaving its stupid stinky smell all around, leaving us to suffer...wats more i got injured while trying to catch it...my fourth toe poked into a nail and it got scratched too....i din even realise it until my bro saw blood on the floor..haha..

so anyway, after clearing the rat, for the first time ever in my life....my family was packing our house, we were cleaning and throwing away stuff, ON THE FIRST DAY OF CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!! haha...now my house looks totally different, it is finally neat and tidy...haha...or should i say it looks neater and tidier den before...haha...

tmr is my birthday already...in about 22 more hours time i will turn 18...i will be able to club legally, and i can go get my first tattoo done...haha...enroll for bike liscense...and do lots more things...but, looking forward to tmr?? this is a question that i asked myself many many times...from the very beginning, my answer was yes...duh! den it changed to no... recently it was changed again to yes..why not?? den currently...even though it is jus tmr, i dun feel excited at all....i jus feel like it is super normal...lets hope that i will have a change of mind sometime today to make me feel happier and look forward to tmr..

shall go sleep now...gotta wake up early early early tmr...and wats more, i am super shack!!! i need to get more more more rest...oh my!!!! haha...shall go now...

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2007-02-18T04:48:00.000-08:00

eve if chinese new year was hell of a day man...haha..was the first person my mum got out of bed..cause there was a baby rat in her room and so she had to wake me up!!! argh!!! haha...she practically shook me till i opened my eyes..asked her wats up and she told me the whole thing...i said later i will catch it..but no!! she wanted me to get rid of it straight away...so i dragged my tired self out of bed and cleared it...
blade with my bro to parkway to buy breakfast for us...my poor bro fell and got 4 bruises..haha..all the way he was super sissy lah..complaining that it was painful..den we went home to eat...and i forgot to buy the most important thing!! coffee for my mum...wakaka..but it was cool, she made some herself..heh.
den after eating straight down to housework...lets see wat i did...

cleaned the spider-webs on my mum's room ceiling.
changed all the lights
washed all the light cover
baked cookies
keep the clothes
sweep the floor
cleaned the rat glue that was on the floor of the balcony
gave out the clothes
pack my room

den went to church, laughed alot with my bro in church...making fun of everyone we could lay our eyes on...yes, that include the priest...it was reunion dinner at my grandpa house...i finished eating but hadta wait for my grandpa to leave the table before i could leave...bro left with me, he went to meet his girlfren while i went to meet the love of my life...haha..got alot of pinches today...and i was super tired from all the work plus the lack of my beauty sleep...but someone made us walk from macs to bk den back to macs...haha.but it was cool...haha..

after that me and bro went gaming...den i studied ABIT! heh heh..mum picked us up to go for perankan mass...laughed alot too...i did a silly prayer..as the mass was somewat in malay...and everything was malay...including the songs..i was singing to the correct tune but making up my own words...den when it was time to pray, i purposely pray out loud so that my mum and bro could hear wat i was saying..and they laughed super alot...this was wat i said...

"Lord, please help my brother as he is a little bit retarded...forgive him for all the things he has done to me and to anyone...we already forgave him cause we know that he is mentally challanged...please help him fill up tat empty head of his..."

haha...i know i was mean..but it was for fun..he was laughing..so was i...den mum and bro interlock their arms with mine and tried to tear me apart...but i jus tahan their strength and in the end they could pull me..instead they squashed me...oh my!!

came home, played mahjong...den was going to sleep when my sis came in...there was a rat in her room..i swear these rats ah...need to be taught a lesson..haha..fancy disturbing me when i am enjoying my beauty rest...argh!! so i went over...and checked where it was, was jus about ti catch it wen it suddenly started running towards me, i shouted and jumped...jus in time for it to run under me...my sis screamed and fell back onto her bed, scratching my arm...this is the funny part, the rat was running out of the room.and my bro was at the door...the moment my sis screamed, he screamed and started running...the rat was super scared and ran so fast that when it wanted to turn, it skidded...haha..in the end, it is caught! and thrown away...i can so be a professional rat catcher man!! sis had a hard time going back to sleep cause her legs were still soft due to the scare..bro too...haha..but now they are sound asleep....everyone..

gotta wake up at 9 am tmr to start the visiting...now it is 4:45am...haha..its cool for me though..i dun mind losing this hours of sleep...cause there is a chinese belief that on the eve of chinese new year, the later the kids sleep, the longer their parents life...so yea..may my mum have a long life...

by the way..GONG XI FA CAI!! happy new year...i shall either sleep now or find something to do...haha..

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2007-02-17T01:37:00.000-08:00

so after dunno how many days of being sick...i finally got my butt to the doc...stepped into polyclinic coughing like nobody's business...den sitting down breathing super hard...the person sitting beside me was staring at me cos i was wheezing very badly...got my number den was taken into the nurse room...given immediate treatment cos guess wat?? hahah...i had an asthma attack..like after god knows how long...it sucks man!! doc put me back on my asthma medicine PERMANENTLY!!!!!

got 45 min worth of nagging from the health counsellor...she was telling me about some stupid chart that i hafta keep and the things i gotta do...best part is that she can repeat her point over and over again...den she even test me to see if i was paying attention...haha..

dinner was a chore..cos of the side effects of the ventolin, my whole body was trembling...and my heart was beating super fast..felt damn uncomfortable...even putting the rice into my mouth was tiring..haha...

watched EPIC MOVIE with my bro today...it is hell of a lame show..laughed till i cough throughout the movie...but alot of censored parts lah..haha..but if you wana watch the show you must make sure to know your movies well...

i gotta go now...need to sleep as tmr is a long day ahead!! nite world...

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2007-02-15T09:00:00.001-08:00

well if there is once, twice will come and den thrice will happen..that i know.
but four times?? hmmm...does it mean that it is going to come true??
so someone called me that day to ask if i was fine....and i said cant get any worse...den she told me about her dream...
i was in a bus and i think it was a cement mixer that crashed into the bus directly right where i was sitting...everyone managed to get out fine...jus that i was the only fatal one!! haha...so yes. i died! that is ONCE

den someone else called me i cant remember when though...and told me to be careful...den i was like why?? and so she told me her dream too...
dunno where the hell i was...in a car with dunno who also...and i have no idea where we were going...happily talking and laughing and dunno wat...when suddenly KA-BOOM!! yupp..i met in another accident in another dream..jus that this one i din die...haha...
so that is TWICE...

den on 14th feb, when i woke up early in the morning...and den of cos..fell back asleep..i dreamt of myself...in an accident...this time fatal!!
so i was wearing NYPGA jersey...and was walking out of my house near the guard house...den it was green man..so i crossed the road and when i looked up, i saw a car driving towards me at fast speed...and WHAMP! i flew...landed on the opposite side of the road..at that point in time i was not dead yet...and this was the killer...hahah..a truck could not break in time and rolled over my body...so yea..i died! that was the THIRD...

14th feb, late at night...someone called me...we talked den she told me her dream...
we were eating and i got angry with her..so i rode off very fast...she followed behind in a cab..i din wan her to follow so i was doing dunno wat stunts and all...den i skidded...but this is the best part of the dream...i was injured and she came towards me...den i got up and started running away...hahah...so thats my FOURTH...

anyone else got anymore to tell me?? cos i wana know..this somehow makes me think..is my time really coming? den i will think again...does it make any difference?? wat i am going through is already enough...but one thing i know i wont die now...not until i turn 18, get my liscense and my first bike, and my tattoo done..after all that is done..i am a very satisfied person and i can go...i guess death is not that scary afterall, wats the scary part is that you might not know when it is coming and have not done everything thing that you wan to do...

for me, before i die, i would wana tell my family that i am sorry and that i love them...and of cos tell my first love,the one that i really love and will always have a place in my heart that i love her even though we were never together...and ask them all to lead a happy life...

ok...i feel like i am depressed...am i suicidal?? haha..no way...i wont kill myself...that way my mum wont get any insurance money...den who is going to pay for the funeral?? haha...wat a way to think...but i guess this is life...you live and die..wakaka..shall go now...will be back later..

see you later alligator...

2007-02-14T00:26:00.000-08:00

i think i spent 85% of my time in bed...lets see..i woke up at 7am this morning den was feeling very sick...so i went back to sleep till 2pm...got my ass out of bed and out of the house...went to parkway for a while...studied at macs for about an hour...den i made my way home..used the money my mum gave me to get my ankle fixed..den came back at about 5pm...got into bed den went to sleep...only woke up at 11pm..heh!!
i am going back to sleep soon....cause i jus took my medication for my stupid cough...fever sucks..esp if you have got no medicine to take to bring it down...oh wells..i better go and get some rest..wana get better asap...dun wana be sick during chinese new year!!

oh yes...to everyone out there HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! to all the couples, i hope you have the best time together...well to all those single and lonely people, if fated that someone will find you....

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2007-02-13T00:10:00.000-08:00

i am officially falling sick..thanks to the stupid rat glue...haha..nothing much happened today...woke up and slack till it was time to meet shortymon and babe..spent all the time in macs..teachin her media studies...wakaka..den they send me for training..thank you so much for driving all the way down to my school...thanks..

training was fun today...lotsa laughter...izyan's attachment is at IMH...and today was only her first day and guess wat?? she came to training a bit more crazy...cause as it is she is already naturally crazy...so imagine wat we had to go through..esp me and shida...oh my!! the dancing to 'dun cha' using the shadows..lame crab dance she did in front of us when me and shida was dribbling the ball to cross...haiyo...

cikgu did some imitations of me during the saturday match...well this was wat happened..
it was a throw in for the opponents..so i ran and jumped and kicked the ball out...den cikgu shouted: " madonna...dun so stress..smile lah!!" i looked at him den shouted back: " i got no time to smile lah..." den everyone started laughing...guess who laughed the loudest?? someone laugh until tears in the eye lor...wonder who ah?? must be some mixed blood...haha...some sotong and human...wakaka...
oh yes...for your info..i did not cry during the match...dunno why cikgu and coach said i cry..i was jus stress..but i know of SOMEONE who had tears in the eye when we 'whoosh' before the second half started..den that SOMEONE was super different that day...seem more sane..haha..jus joking lah...but really that SOMEONE only loosen up when her arm became a bit yellowish during the last 30 min of the game...haha..if you know who..dun say.. if you dun...THINK!!!

ok ppl..i gotta go..getting sleepy plus i got dental early tmr...so yea..bye all...

p.s sorry izzy if i tekan you alot in my post today...but its fun lah. =) heh. dun be angry ah...

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2007-02-11T23:45:00.000-08:00

What Hurts the Most

Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ It

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That’s what I was trying to do

2007-02-11T06:53:00.001-08:00

busy day...feeling tired...so i shall make it simple...
-woke up at 9 plus..
-send bro for tuition
-visit my nanny
-went tamp mall
-bought 2 berms
-birthday present(wallet)
-pick bro
-pick sis
-lunch
-buy paper plates and stuff
-clean up the house
-clean up the house
-clean up the house
-went to church
-visit my grandpa
-ate dinner
-bring my bro cut hair
-shop for the food stuff
-unpack the stuff
-bathe
-blog
-surf the net
-sleep!

done! the schedule for today...haha..i wana go surf the net now...den i can sleep.....
so adios..chaoz

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2007-02-10T23:46:00.000-08:00

so much for me being superstitious...cut my hair before the league...so that i can buang-sway(throw away the bad luck)..wakaka..think it is cause i din cut much lah..i jus neaten it up cos nowadays i wont leave home without a cap..haha..oh wells...currently i am typing like an idiotic ass cause my left thumb is injured and i cant type properly...haha..keep making so many typo errors...wat the *toot*...anyways back to the game...

we lost 13-0 i think...it was quite bad..yupp..suck big time..but funny thing cikgu was not angry..he was not even shouting at us...oh yes before i forget..i wana say sorry to everyone..the whole team...watever happened on the field stays on the field...i know i din smile and was even shouting at you guys..sorry k??

yuki- i think that you played well today...you took all chances and performed...

naj-you were great out at the field...chasing after every ball...and your 'i dun wan to sub..i still wana play' attitude was great man!!! keep it up...

sly-take care of that knee of yours k? dun further strain it...let it rest well..and i am praying that you will recover soon so that you and i can play midfield...

shaf-thanks alot for playing for us k?? i know you are tired and all cause you had a match last night plus all your npcc and stuff..but you did not let it affect you..

dee-you were great at the back...placed alot of pressure on the attackers...take care of your ankle alright??

raul-steady man!!! you chased the opponents...recovered very fast and continue chasing...were you on steriods?? haha...

lulu-great defending and dun give up...you making it down for the match meant alot to me...thanks for rushing...and also for all your funny sound effects that made me laugh during the game...

izyan-sorry for tripping you in the first half...really sorry...but i am glad that you managed to cheer up after that and not pull that long and sulking face you had...somebody's arm today a bit yellow ah?? wonder why..haha..thanks also for all the excitment we had when you were striking...

shida-make sure you dun exert your wrist anymore...you were doing a good job and i know that their shot were hard..but you still did save some..and that is good...

rose-bro..you left your body print on the field..haha..it was totally daring of you to come out and attack that girl...coolness man!! why did you do tat ah?? was it cos she was pretty?? haha..joking..

and to all those that i missed out...you guys did great too...

i learnt something today...winning is not everything...that is wat people will say...but i realise that when you are in the losing position...one gets very uptight and stress..that was exactly how i felt...i couldnt smile and was practically shouting...i could feel the anger build up in it..but one thing for sure i din do...is let that anger take control of me..

we gotta train harder and really give all we can for the up coming 2 matches..we can do it...
i have complete faith in all of you guys...

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2007-02-09T16:17:00.000-08:00

congrats yana and emil on passing your o'levels...i am so proud of you..haha...
you guys made it man!!! great job done..now all thats left is for you guys to getting into the course that you all want to...so good luck!!!

i am home now...meeting aien later i guess..that is if she is coming to my house!! right now...emil and yana are here..haha..so is Q...so yea...am bored!!

going out later...think so..wakaka..not sure...right now i am missing someone...hoping that she can be by my side...and maybe chill at the beach...jus like how we used to...me,yana,emil,aien,shortz....

oh..i think i should go now..cos i know...somethings are best left unsaid...so yea..i should go now..bye all...

2007-02-09T00:02:00.000-08:00

wat i am going to say next is going to get me quite a bit of nagging from some ppl who feel like making noise....i know i was suppose to rest my ankle and save it for saturday's game..but i played soccer today near the hockey pitch...its cool though..not as painful as wednesday...so please spare me watever nagging i can get...thank you!! =)

played for a while den i sat down with the rest to play cards and also got drawings on my arms..i felt like a notice board...
shayibul wrote "LAST WARNING"
ana wrote "zara rocks my socks"
nad wrote "nad hearts zara...from your senior"
i drew a cross....
shaiful helped me write babe....and also my name...

haha...went with ryan and gang to park lane....this shopping centre..maybe not a shopping centre lah..like a building...his fren went to get a tattoo...super funny i tell you...after every few seconds you can hear the fella going 'oh my gosh..ooh..oh my gosh' super funny lah...wakaka..

nothing much happened today though...thats about it...so yea..gotta go now...shaf is calling me...going to talk to her...ciaoz!!

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2007-02-08T00:03:00.000-08:00

today is not a good day at all...
and i know that things are not going to get any better yet...
so this is an advance apology...
i am very sorry to those whom i shouted at....
or to those whom got worried...
i will get over it...
jus leave me alone..
if you see that i have a frown...dun bother...
if you dun see me smile..dun bother..

i guess i am feeling kinda stress..
with my exams coming up...
challenge cup coming up...
my ankle...
the bloody injury...

i feel like i am going through depression..but i know i am not...i am jus feeling very down...when i am with my frens..at times i feel down...but it hits me hardest when i am home...all by myself..den i will start thinking...and that sucks..

i dun wana talk about things anymore..hope i will be happier next time i come around..bye

12 more days

2007-02-07T00:38:00.000-08:00

this was me yesterday.....
the me that doesnt study....and since my exams are around the corner...i thought it was high time i went through an extreme makeover...haha..check the new me out!!

the new me...looking oh so smart...

and of cos...with the specs on plus the nerd look...i am a changed person..look at that!!! I AM STUDYING!!!!! (thats why there is air pork...cos pigs are flying now!!)

jus a pity...that look only lasted for less den 5 min..so i am back to my old self..wakaka...
studying...NAH!!!!
soccer...YEA!!!
fun....OOH!!!!
haha..ok.i am feeling very bored and crappy...so please dun mind me..heh heh heh.

13 more days

2007-02-06T12:34:00.000-08:00

ooh yea..i am awake!!! very very awake..though my right foot is killing..but other den that..i am fine!! yippeee!!! ok i am feeling kinda energetic now..maybe cause thanks to my dream...haha.super funny..i dunno how in the world i got such a dream man..this is how the dream goes..

some of the soccer ppl came to my house...so did shortyz and fiona..den we were all jus sitting and talking..suddenly someone wanted to get sth so we all decided to follow...fiona drove the car..with shortyz in front..den behind them was dee izyan and lulu...so this car that they were in has the hole in the top..get wat i mean?? meaning can pop your head or body up....hahaha...since the car had no more space..shaf and i decided to run...izyan shaf and me were in track suits(that was the thing that trapped the air and kept us flying)...i have no idea why but yea..the wind was very very very very very very strong...and we were going against the wind...i knew i used all my might to run but the wind jus kept me in the position that i was in..den next thing i knew..i was flying in the air..looked around i saw shaf in the air too..izzy had her body out of the hole thing and guess wat?? the car was in the air too...hahha..we were flying higher and higher about already 6 storeys..den suddenly lulu said "i think it is going to rain.we better go down first cos it is dangerous" shaf panicked..she jus unzip her windbreaker and fell straight down..den i shouted to her "you mad ah??fall down like that" guess wat...she can reply me say "no lah...not pain at all..feels like bungey jumping jus that you will hit the ground" den i unzip my windbreaker slowly and i started to fall already..opening up my arms and trapping some air..i slowed down the rate tat i was falling..grapped onto the over land cables...den below that was another set of cables..grabbed that too...den i dropped to the ground...izzy was like "eh style the way she fall..i also wan!!!!" lulu looked at her superly fierce den say"no...wat is going to happen to the car if you go??" fiona and shortyz wind down their window...stick 2 umbrellas out and den asked izzy to unzip her windbreaker...slowly they reached the floor...

thats the end of my dream cos i got a phone call..wakaka..lame dream right?? i know..but it is funny..esp if you saw wat i saw..hahah..

14 more days

2007-02-06T02:28:00.000-08:00

school was crap today...total crap..haha..went to school late..after lecture went to get my attendance marked..den was told that its alright...cos it was jus a revision lecture..went to slack and of cos i started bombarding my phone with my pics...wakka..shall show some later..if i got mood..wakaka..went for my stupid ICA which was kinda screwed up due to the lag in the school com...time was not enough..oh wells..but i guess it should be fine...haha

training...woohoo!!! all the balls were missing...went early but training started late due to the missing balls...i bet those ppl who dun have enough balls took them..wakaka..anyway every mondays and wednesdays from 6pm onwards is the time i look forward to the most..cause i get to do something i really enjoy..it is the ONLY time i get to do something that i like without being stopped..or controlled..

so training was on...normal things happened..den we played 2 side...got kicked in my thigh thanks to izyan!!!!! got blue-black i will find you ah...you watch out you!!! haha..lotsa funny things happened...

after training went to eat at BK...we occupied 3 tables and all 3 tables talked about different things...my table which consists of me, lulu and dee...we were talking about us getting lost..walking home..missing the last bus and siblings..plus the fights..haha..den we headed home..
took bus to tamp..but got no more bus home!!! haha..called my mum to pick me up...walked from tamp st 21 till near the SAFRA Tamp...haha..and now i am home...

Lulu..i accept your challenge...i will help the others to my very best to brush up on our soccer...we can do it before the new intake comes in...woot woot!!

14 more days

2007-02-05T10:46:00.000-08:00

this is me with ryan sunglasses....super bigg or wat?

i was taking pics when this cute person came and i cant help but take more pics of her....

i swear this person is super cute!!! haha..

i am superly not shy...but watever...if you like the pic you can save it..if you want to go ahead..print it out...and who knows!

if you are lucky i might give you an autograph...haha

2007-02-05T01:14:00.000-08:00

so singapore won the asian cup title...they had a draw today..but considering the performance today..i dun think that they should have won..their passes were lousy and easily read...the kept losing their possession..oh my..haha..anyways i spent the whole day at home..den only left at 9.45 for the airport..picked my mum up and back home..mum bought me 2 long sleeves t shirt from esprit...a billabong t-shirt..a board shorts..2 wrist bands..hmmm..

anyways..i have no idea why..but i am like stuck on a song..haha..maybe its the lyrics..i dunno..haha..
Paris Hilton-NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
Da-da,
Da-da, Da-da, Da,
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da

So I was thinking to myself when you passed me by
"Here's what I like"
And you were with somebody else but you can't deny
That's me in your eye

Do you know
What it's like
When it's wrong
But it feels so right?

Nothing in this world can stop us tonight
I can do what she can do so much better
Nothing in this world can turn out the light
I'm gonna make you feel alright tonight.

Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight
Da-da, Da-da, Da-da, Da, Tonight

Baby, you and I, we got what will never be
You know I'm right
So tell me what you're waiting for when you're here with me?
Most guys would die
You should know
What it's like
When it hurts
'Cause it feels so right

Nothing in this world can stop us tonight
I can do what she can do so much better
Nothing in this world can turn out the light
I'm gonna make you feel alright tonight.

I gotta tell you somethin'
It's somethin' that you just might like
No, it's not the same thing
Yeah, you'll learn I'm not too shy
You and I, we can do this thing tonight

Nothing in this world can stop us tonight
I can do what she can do so much better
Nothing in this world can turn out the light
I'm gonna make you feel alright tonight.

Nothing in this world can stop us tonight
I can do what she can do so much better
Nothing in this world can turn out the light
I'm gonna make you feel alright tonight.

15 more days

2007-02-04T16:29:00.000-08:00

so...i had a very good sleep..haha..woke up at i think 2 plus...super shiok!! folded all the clothes and den i packed my cupboard...gotta get my butt down to cleaning the house and my room soon!!! chinese new year is coming..and hafta make sure the house is clean by then...but i feel so lazy!!! haha...
tonight is the 2nd leg of singapore vs thailand..i feel like going out to watch..anyone keen in watching it with me??? haha..hmmm..feel like asking shortyz out but that girl cacat lah..later wait she walk around i feel stress for her man!! oh wells..lets see how first...wakaka..
later at night i also gotta go fetch my mum back from hong kong...she called me yesterday though..asking me whether i wan some long sleeves tshirt that she saw..wakaka..i got new clothes...but i have yet to go get my new jeans..i need to get them before chinese new year man!! damn...
shall go now..byes!!

16 more days

2007-02-04T01:36:00.000-08:00

hmmm...caught up with my sleep..haha...slept for i think 12 hours..went to visit nadiah today..den was makan session at far east and to school for our match against sporting westlake...
final score 3-nil...woohoo!!! we kicked some asses today man!! haha...thats the way..but i swear my leg is gone...argh!!
lets see...today the team played really well..we had a good possession today..which is really good..winning or losing doesnt really matter...it is more about how we play..thats more important..thats wat soccer is about..the flow of the ball..thats wat makes soccer so beautiful...keep it up guys!!!
got sub in today after the first few minutes of playing cause sly leg was injured...played attacking center-mid...this was the position that i played the first time i played for the school..it was against ITE at semei..haha..den my first touch of the ball wasnt a good touch man..haha..i head the ball..but it whacked my face..haha..think it flattened by nose..funny though..
i swear that no.16 of sporting westlake is IMMOVEABLE!!!!!!!!! if there is such a word..haha..she was guarding me and all she did was stick her hand out and puched a bit and i almost fell..haha..but when i use all my might to push her..i seriously used alot of force to push her...she din even move lah!!! too much man these people...and she is superly tall..corner kick i kana guard her...i jumped for the ball and reached her height...den she jumped and was like oh my...haha..
den that no.10!!!! somebody gotta go shut her up man..kept making so much noise...non stop flow of vulgarities coming out from her mouth...haiyo.people nowsdays ah...haha..den i dunno why..but she actually squatted down and beat our field...lulu can say that need to put plaster for the fiel cos it kana whacked..haha..

okok...enough about the match..on the other hand..i wana thank you all for bringing the presents down...it was really cool man...bro...the cake was nice man!!! woohoo!! superb...haha.. today's sabo was power!!! haha..flour water and eggs...wakaka...nice man!! thanks lulu for making me dirty also...so much for the moon was very nice...haha..anyways..Happy Birthday...haha..

p.s thanks lulu for your words of encouragments..not only in the game when you told me to be on my toes...haha..but also after the makan session..before you left..i am aiming and working hard to get there..i hope one day it might come true...haha..

2007-02-01T23:48:00.000-08:00

tears were shed..
hearts were broken...
dewi has left singapore...
we all bid our farewells...
but her memories still lingers...

when i saw dewi..i wanted to hug her and tell her not to go..don't leave us..but that would be selfish of me...though i know the whole team doesnt want her to go..but she is going for a good reason..she will be happy with wat she is going to do..so we should all feel happy for her..yes we will..

when i hugged her..tears kept coming out..i know that i was going to miss her...and the farewell is something that i couldnt take...i din wan to take it..cos i dun wan her to go..but oh wells..i wish her all the best..

everyone was there to say goodbye..her girls from chij st joseph...her netball buddies...her family..and us her soccer team..tears were coming out from everyone there..its sad to see someone whom you are close to leave for another country...and its for 3 years..

right outside the departure gate...i was sitting down and i witnessed something that really touched me...dewi came to us and had a very panicked face, asking where is lulu..and den they hugged...tears rolling down both their cheeks..seeing how they hugged and sobbed as lulu said goodbye..it showed how close they are...how they really treasure their frenship..

that was also where we all came together...hands in the middle..and dewi joined us..we heard her last "eh.guess wat" and she sang my love by westlife..a few of us tried to sing along...but our voices couldnt come out as we were tearing..and we made our last "NANYANG WHOOSH" with dewi before she left..

seeing her walk through the gate...i admit that i had thoughts of her not being able to go away due to some complications at the customs...cause i really din wan her to go..i am sorry dewi..but she cleared it all..she waved goodbye to everyone...

after she left and was out of sight...izyan broke down.she really cried very hard..
this is to lulu and izzy: it was hard for us to see her go...and it is also hard for her to go...but all these has to happen..so we will all stay happy and wait for her when she returns..since you guys are close frens..nothing can ever happen to change that fact..this distance wont affect your frenship..there are many ways for us to be in contact with her..and her spirit will always linger...i really respect you guys for staying so strong and letting her leave with peace in her mind..for not letting her see the way you guys broke down..

19more days.....

2007-01-31T15:21:00.000-08:00

wats up with all the cancellations today?? like shit lah...argh!!! total waste of my money...haha...lets see..so far today i experienced 4 cancellations..first was when it exactly passed midnight..i reached home and told my mum that i will have dinner with her and send her off den go for the soccer finals..but she said dun need to send her..thats 1...the second was when i told my bro that i got him a ticket to watch the finals..den he said that he dun wan to go..that ticket costs me 7 bucks man...so much for me being nice to him..wtf!!! argh..den this morning cant wake up..was late for my class..took a cab to school and on the way to school i checked my phone...lesson was cancelled!!! happily wasted 10bucks..bloody hell...reached school and i realised that i din bring the room key...rushed back home and back to school agian..on the way back to school...national dental center called to say that my appointment is cancelled..so now i am in school..ALONE!! cos my loner buddy not in school...shida went home..squidward is doing project and shaf is in camp...

damn it lah shaf!!! i miss you lah..dun go for camps...i got alot of things to tell you...msg me asap!!! feels weird to be in school without you man!!! its like i got nobody to talk nonsense to...nobody to listen to all my crap..why you so like that ah? why you so like that leh?? have to live the next 3 days without my best fren..boohoohoo!!!

its already wednesday..tmr is thursday..tmr is THE DAY...the day that i dread..i wish that tmr will never come..that way i wont hafta be at the airport..that way i wont hafta bid farewell to my senior..to my fren...to the one who was there for me..the one whom gives me encouragement and never fails to make each training session a happy session...every match a nice match..DEWI..please dun go!!! please.... =''(
from the bottom of my heart..i wish you a very safe journey..all the best in everything that you are going to do..you will never be forgotten..i will never say goodbye..cos i know that someday..somehow and somewhere..we will meet again..so to you my fren and senior..see you again..you will be deeply missed..not only by me but by all the whooshies..take good care of yourself..come back to visit us..IF NOT...i will go there to visit you..haha..

2007-01-31T00:44:00.000-08:00

dewi...my senior and friend whom will be missed alot...

i wrote a song for her...and den it was den edited by shaf...this is the lyrics...

Ms Dewi
I cant believe how fast time flies
It seems like yesterday
You told us you’re leaving
And now it’s really time for you to go
You’re going somewhere far
And leaving us behind

Even though you’re leaving
I just want you to know that
You will never be forgotten
(Never be forgotten)
All the joy that we had
Will be kept close to our hearts
(Close to our hearts)

I’m glad to have a friend like you
Whom we can share all the moments together
I know that we cant have another you
Simply cause dewi, you’re irreplaceable

Even though you’re leaving
I just want you to know that
You will never be forgotten
(Never be forgotten)
All the joy we had
Will be kept close to our hearts
(Close to our hearts)

I will never say goodbye to you now
Cause I know that we’ll meet again
So to you my friend
My lovely Miss Dewi
We’ll be right here waiting for you
When you come home

Even though you’re leaving
I just want you to know that
You will never be forgotten
(Never be forgotten)
All the joy we had
Will be kept close to our hearts
(Close to our hearts)

i'm sorry everyone for making you guys cry..and i am sorry that i couldnt control till after my performance...it was like i was up on the stage and singing...den when i looked at dewi in her eyes...i could see the tears welling up...looked at the rest of you guys..and most of you had tears rolling down your cheeks..especially tat squidward!!! got dunno wat wrapping her face..and it really struck me for the millionth time..that dewi is really leaving..looking at her and meaning every word that was coming out from my mouth...jus caused the tears to roll down..

i know that i am going to miss having dewi around..the senior tat i joke with and really have fun...things are going to change...but i know that when she comes back..she will be welcomed back with arms wide open by all of us...
we're going to miss you alot!!!!

2007-01-30T01:41:00.000-08:00

today had training..my kicks sucked..everything sucked..first was my nose that was running..den plus the cool air i like cant breathe..but that was only a small thing..it din affect me much..wat was the killer was the first time i kicked the ball..my last week injury came back...the same damn pain when i move all my toes from my 2nd toe onwards...the bloody pain that is at the bone and is shooting in..that affected my kicking cos it really hurt and i could step on it properly...but i refuse to go to polyclinic for a check up..cos i dun wana know wat happened to it..i got a bad feeling..oh wells..am jus going to wait till after the league to go and check out wat happened...
wanted to go to the chinese sensei that i always go...but i cant..cause my mum is making noise..as it is really taxing ah..imagine every visit is about 40bucks..and i hafta go there at least once in 2 weeks...seriously lah...argh..hopefully cikgu is going to the one is JB soon...den i can go with him..that would be cheaper lah..
i suddenly feel not fit to play for the league..i dunno why but i feel that i am out of touch..even though i have been going for trainings often and regular...argh!! i dunno lah...i hope that the damn injury wont affect me during the leagues...i really hope that it wont..shit lah..this sucks...

i jus feel like msging you..cos i miss you...
but i guess its best if i dun...
hope that you can move on and be happy..
cos knowin that you are smiling would be good enough for me...

2007-01-28T22:25:00.000-08:00

hey all...sorry about the previous entry..haha..jus ignore it..unless you are the one that the entry was for..
you know sometimes you jus wana do something but you jus cant do it?? you know how that feeling feels like right?? i am feeling it now..it sucks...oh wells..too bad i cant do it..or should i say for now?? haha

2007-01-28T02:15:00.000-08:00

yea..the happiness that i am lookin for is not attainable..its not cos i haven found it..but is cos someone ruin it...
sometimes people dun know the hurt and damage they caused as they are too fucking selfish..they dun give a damn about others..not even family..so much for blood is thicker than water...i dare to say this to your face...my frens treat me better den how you do..all you ever do is make use of people..

thing is the whole truth is out..everything that you have done..so dun go around saying that i am fucking blaming you..cos i know, you know and everyone knows that i am not blaming you...i am jus merely stating facts..

after 17 years of living, i suddenly got a curfew? i really like to know why...haha..cos i was getting really close to her and you are not happy with you..you were getting jealous of the closeness that we had...the closeness that you can never get..so obviously you trying to protect wat you thought was yours, told my mum and ka-boom!! the curfew was implied!! wow...great job done!! you get to spend more time with her...

wats with the callin of my mum to find out where i am and who i am out with for?? jus cos you thought that she was out with me?? hahahaha...paranoid!! typical over possesive freak!! so much for saying that you never told the family...ya right i believe you!! kiss my ass man!! The whole family thinks that i stole her away from you..they saw me as the third party..but did they know that you and her were over long long ago?? did you tell them? hahah...wat a joke!
wat happened between us was a totally mutual thing...so chill man! dun go round saying you can't stand the family and yet on the other and try to act goodie with them..come on man.think about things...when did you stand up and defend her when the family was talking bad stuff bout her?? wait a minute..have you ever?? hahaha..doubt you have..cos you hafta be an angel...

i knew my mistakes and have changed my ways....i know never ever to trust anyone..especially people who treat you so nice when they need you and once your help is no longer needed, they dump you aside...i've taken a step back and seen the whole picture...and i know that i would do anything to avoid seeing you or even have anything to do with you...cos you make me feel disgusted...jus so you know..you will have already been forgiven for everything you've done...but I CAN NEVER FORGET WAT YOU'VE DONE!!! i have stopped giving you the respect that i've once given to you as my cousin...and i no longer treat you like my cousin...dun even think about fren..you will jus be a stranger..total stranger...so mind your own business and dun interfere with my life...

if i ever find out that you poke your stinking nose into my business..i won't hold back in whacking the shit out of you..afterall who are you to me? you're no longer my cousin...hahah..
i mean wat i say...so dun try me..unless you feel like getting whacked..

2007-01-27T08:29:00.000-08:00

my best fren and me at the stadium..

all smiles...

a bunch of them trying to act like how i am...CUTE!!

so it was boring....

so boring until SQUIDWARD can pick her nose...hah

2007-01-27T08:19:00.000-08:00

wonder who is this with the hat...

hmmm..looks familiar...

oh..its lulu

wah...so excited!!!

a group photo..on the way to macs

2007-01-26T23:45:00.000-08:00

yesterday...the number 1 fan title was taken away from me..cos i woke up late and izzy's performance was pushed forward...but not my fault!!! cos I WAS NOT INFORMED!!!!!haha..made in time for lady zy's performance den i rushed my project within an hour and the whole way was slacking for me!!! hahahah....went for taufik's concert in school..was nice lah...not bad...haha..after tat went to my nanny's place...

woke up at 11.15am this morning..took my shower and left for school..haha..got my number 1 fan title back!! woot!! haha..went to school to listen to a beautiful voice singing two songs..wakaka...if you guys wan the video den meet me online and get from me k?
oh ya...linc is super preetty lah...really!! haha..she is superly preetty...hahah..think almost everyone will agree with me when i say that she is preettty...wakaka..so now i'm home. waiting for time to pass den i will be making a move to meet the rest of the whooshies at kallang mrt to go support singapore when they play against malaysia later...

i'm glad that now you know...
you wana make hell go ahead...
cos i'm going to tell you this..
I DUN GIVE A FUCK NO MORE!!
go tell my mum, shawn, sis and family..
as it is..you have already made life miserable for me..so adding abit more won't hurt anymore..
by the way..i have yet to thank you for everything you've done.
THANKS! and now its time for you to FUCK OFF..
dun ask my bro about me and try to act all concern and shit..
just mind your own business..

2007-01-25T22:41:00.000-08:00

woke up latetoday...went to school! actually i rushed to school cos the number 1 fan was almost late for izzy's performance..haha..wah lao i tell you ah.that squidward sing damn nice lah..made my hair stand..haha..den i was at macs..met my classmate and we did project...super boring..had so much time to kill cos i was waiting for hady mirza's concert..went for the concert..he only sang 2 songs..but it was a fun and nice and entertaining performance lah..haha..so yea..den i am home!!

i hope to see you soon..cos i really miss you..
i dun wana stay away from you anymore..
cos even as a fren i think that we can meet at least once in a while..
hope your papa is feeling better..

2007-01-25T01:01:00.000-08:00

lets jus say today was fucked up..yupp..it was totally fucked up!
i am feeling fucked up...and there is nothing that can be doen to make me feel better...
so it all started with OC..the show was kinda shitty last night..everything was going wrong..i dun like it cos i feel that it is wat is happening to my life now..everything.EVERY FUCKING THING IS GOING WRONG!!!! hate wat i hafta go through..sometimes i wished that i was never even born at all..i jus dun wana be me!! this me that i have become..a me that is sad and trys very hard to be happy..a me that comes home and starts thinking of everything that has happened..hate this life lah...i wana go to somewhere i can jus shout and let things all out..i jus wana break down once and for all..i jus wan every bit of saddness out of me! i jus wana be the me that i was when i was a kid...a me with no worries or troubles..but that can never come true..argh!!
ok..so after OC i couldnt sleep...i lay in bed looking at pics and listening to music..and all of a sudden before i knew anything..my eyes were filled with tears and my head was filled with sweet memories of me and that special someone..i drifted into sleep and woke up..went to school den slacked all the way till 3 plus..during that time i was at macs with all the loners...dee and me feeling superly bored went to the roadshow that the sports and wellness seniors setup...
she did 50 push ups and i did 45..she broke the old record of 10..haha..
den we did the lunges..old record 30 in 1 min...she did 35 and i did 40..haha
next was sit ups..old record 45..she did 53..woot woot..i din bother doing..wakaka..cos i jus ate..
and finally was bench press using the 10lbs dumbells per side...she did 17 and i did 25..the old record was 10..wakka..
so in the end the record board was filled with only our names..yupp! den i went to the hockey pitch to play soccer..fell down and scrapped my knee..stopped playing and went to relax..got ready for training..den we palyed two side...injured my toe?? sth like that...made my way home..and now i am sitting in front of the com..feelin the same..i wana feel better!!! i need to feel better badly...i dun wan me feelin this way to get ppl affected...argh!!

2007-01-24T09:03:00.000-08:00

if you dun wana contact me anymore...go ahead.
i dun wana be the one who is stopping you from moving on...
i dun wana be the one who hurts you anymore...
cos i have done enough to you..
sorry cant undo the things that i have done..
sorry cant undo the lies that i told..
i jus wana see you happy..
i jus wana be happy..
but i know i cant...
not anytime soon at least...
cos when you left i lost a part of me...
sometimes i ask myself..
do i regret expressin my feelings for you?
and i realise that i dun..
cos i really do feel how i felt..
up till now...

i miss you..

2007-01-23T00:43:00.000-08:00

somethings in life, one can't control...
no matter how much you want it to come true...
if it can't happen, it can't happen...
no use trying to force it, that's wat is called fate..
one just gotta accept fact, cos nothing can be done..

as for me, i have accepted the fact..
but i cant get over it, i cant face it.
i wana be there for you, even if it means jus as frens..
but can i face it when you move on?

as it is now, i think of you all the time..
stopping myself from msging you is hard..
try my best to be occupied so that i wont think..
i cant move on, i am stuck here..
hoping that a miracle can happen..

frankly, i dun think i can take it..
cos for now its already eating me up..
slowly but surely...
yes, somethings are better left unsaid...
somethings are better left undone..

would it be better if i pretend that i am fine?
or would it be better if i show you that i still care?

2007-01-21T01:28:00.000-08:00

friday...went to school as usual..jus that din go for lecture..went to study accountings for assets..me and shaf were loners at macs..till dee and shidah came down to join us..woohoo!! the loner club rocks man!! you guys should join...membership fee is now $10 per month (usual price $50 per month) hahahahahha...anyways at 2pm we went for our ICA..the paper was easy if you know how to do it..BUT i din..hahah..so yea..expect the worse man! wakkaka...
stayed at macs till bout 4 plus ah...transfer videos..den i headed home and den back to school for the damn after school party..which was not happening at all..bloody hell!! jam and hop at the school hall was more happening lah..imagine tat..oh my gosh..fucking waste of time!! plus that asshole kai got himself so goddamn high till he got kicked out..went to my nanny's house to stay..fell asleep outside on the sofa and my bro was on the floor..haha..only woke up at 6 am and shift into the room...

today met miss piggy, dee, shidah and fateha at far east...sorry i was so late k? haha..den we chilled at starbucks...the last time i chilled there was like erm..last year?? when i met raul and lulu to talk..haha..man!! that was a long loooooonnnng time ago man..ooh lala..den we headed to school..the train was a halal train lah..haha.there is a story to it..but i will update another day alright?too tired now..there will be pics too..haha..thank you for you kind understanding and co-operation..sorry for the inconvinence caused.hahah.got the stuff ready for the match..den when we were warming up the bloody lightning hadta come..so the match din start till bout 7 plus plus..haha..ref was fucked up!! super shithead curry..bias like nobody's business..BUT the final score was 2-nil to us..dinner as usual..den am home!! feeling sleepy and tired..so i think i should go dudu now..nights all..

2007-01-19T01:15:00.000-08:00

oh yea..before i really go and sleep...all those broken hearted souls out there who really love someone but jus cant be with that certain someone due to any reason as a matter of fact..go listen..its a nice song..
as for me..watching the video itself already brings me memories..hearing the song jus makes it all...SENTIMENTAL!! i dunno lah..it jus means alot to me lah..cos that person really means alot to me..arhg!! i am starting..so bye all!!

i shouldn't love you but i want to
i just can't turn away
i shouldn't see you but i can't move
i can't look away
i shouldn't love you but i want to
i just can't turn away
i shouldn't see you but i can't move
i can't look away

and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not
'cause i don't know how to make a feeling stop

just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and i can't help it
i won't sit around, i can't let him win now
thought you should know
i've tried my best to let go of you
but i don't want to
i just gotta say it all
before i go
just so you know

it's getting hard to be around you
there's so much i can't say
do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way

and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not
'cause i don't know how to make a feeling stop

just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and i can't help it
i won't sit around, i can't let him win now
thought you should know
i've tried my best to let go of you
but i don't want to
i just gotta say it all
before i go
just so you know

this emptiness is killing me
and i'm wondering why i've waited so long
looking back i realize
it was always there just never spoken
i'm waiting here...been waiting here

just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and i can't help it
i won't sit around, i can't let him win now
thought you should know
i've tried my best to let go of you
but i don't want to
i just gotta say it all
before i go
just so you know

Happy day!!!

2007-01-19T01:05:00.000-08:00

reached school late!! haha..slept through my first lesson..den had my breakfast and den was suppose to meet dee and shidah outside mac..but wait and wait and wait...too long so i went in first..met izzy inside instead..den i went for my next lesson..which was a total waste of time..cos i went in walked behind my tutor and gave her a shock cos i wanted to tell her that i was present..den all the way i was listening to song,writing lyrics and reading newspaper..haha..

OH YES!!! anyone knows the world record of drinking a big cup of drinking milo-peng?? if you all know please tell me..cos dee can drink it all down in 13 seconds...that bloody fool..haha..

anyway..went to northland secondary to watch some netball match..but only caught the last few mins..den after that me, yani, dee and dewi went to dewi's house to get the videos of our camp into dee's laptop so that i can meet her and she can pass it over to me tmr so that i can burn...at the same time we were learning the high school musical dance..haha

(if i am blabbering..and you dun wana read anymore...jus come back another day..today the mind is not functioning..too many thoughts..too tired..)

den we left to meet lulu at bishan mrt..actually she jus board the same train as us...the best thing that happened today...LULU GOT PRANKED!!!haha..went to city hall to eat den after that walked to marina square to look for a present tat dewi wanted to get..but we ended up bowling..haha..there were 6 of us..dee,dewi,lulu,fateha,zil and me..so we had a deal that the ultimate loser(the one with the lowest score) will hafta do a silly and ugly face den we take picture..but zil had whipped cream in her bag..so hahahhaha...fateha was the ultimate loser lah..haha..funny..cannot paly with lulu cos she likes to creep behind you and give you a shock..and me and zil were getting paranoid..kept looking back..haha..lulu den treat us to mac 50cent ice cream..took pics..den more pics and more pics...haha..den we headed home..now i am home..feelin very very sleepy..

before i end..i am feeling sad again..dunno why..argh!! maybe i know part of the reason..but the other part...i dunno..haha..
got my exam time table..exam dates 23/2, 26/2, 27/2, 01/3..it is after chinese new year and after my birthday..does that mean that i cant have fun?? haiz...dunno lah...
think i should go now..before i start saying things that i know i should not be saying..so yea..bye..good nights..

fucked UP day!!

2007-01-19T00:44:00.000-08:00

as the title says it all..so tat was wat is was for me yesterday..woke up and hour before i was supposed to..saw my sis using the com..and all i did was jus look at the table to see if my bro took the mp3 den my sis jus turned to me and said see wat? got fed up and went back to sleep..wat the bloody hell lah..den woke up again at 9 to get ready for school..as it is i was already super tired cos i only had 4 hours of sleep the night before..board the bus and den a msg came in...CLASS WAS CANCELLED!!!! damn it lor..i was already in the bus to school!!

came to school and act cool..being a bloody loner..finally i met dee and we chilled..den me, wati and dee went to ang mo kio to play pool..watever wati!! say dunno how to play but in the end win us lor..went back to school and went for training..

training was in the rain yesterday..or at least part of it was..we were totally drenched and our jerseys were heavy..my pants almost felt like dropping..haha!! after training..lulu lost her shoe!! haha..she left it in the toilet..den she couldnt find it..wore an extra pair that was in the locker den we all headed for yishun to makan!! in the end Zil took lulu's shoe..haha..

i din go hoem yesterday!! haha..it was a last minute thing lah..cos i realised i had no fren to go back home with..and it was a really long journey..so i decided to stay at my nanny's house..wakaka..reached there and i knocked out straight away..

2007-01-16T19:37:00.000-08:00

so woke up at 9 this morning..dragged my ass out of bed to go to school..although my class starts at 6pm...cos thanks to me!! being super forgetful..took izzy's wallet home..haha..den i was super sleepy..ate breakfast cum lunch..and slacked..haha..talked to kah hui about our project..

oh ya..people..go check out the NYP soccer blog..see the photo of the day..haha..shidah already msg her not to sleep if not she watch out..but but but!!! she still went to sleep..haha..poor izzy..think we can start a DISTURB SQUIDWARD club for her lor..haha..

went to peni with dee and shidah today..cos dee wanted to buy soccer boots..saw a boot that i like..but no money!! argh..haha..den we were bored and din know where to go..so we headed to marina square...played pool!! before that we kinda got lost..and yes! i cant spot signs well..haha..den we headed home...feeling sleepy man!! should i go take a nap?? think i should..bye.

2007-01-16T00:45:00.000-08:00

hey hey...wana say big thanks to all of you guys for making fateha's birthday a success!! especially the sabo-ing part! sorry for the very short notice on wat stuff to get for her and thank you all for making the effort to get them..

today school finished at 4..thought suppose to go to submit the league forms for cikgu..but he did it already..so i went to eat lunch den headed to the stadium to watch the guy's match..den went for training..played 2 side all the way..no coach no cikgu..jus us and us..haha. after training we had the surprise birthday celebration and the sabo-ing..poor squidward also kana..although it was not her birthday..wakaka..den was shower time and makan at yishun BK..and here i am home!

2007-01-15T14:29:00.000-08:00

haha..another night which i was supposed to sleep early..but i din..haha..was online till god knows wat time..den watched my videos and download songs..in school now..BORING!!! argh..wana go off..dunno learning wat about powerpoint..super boring..shall go play game now..bye!!

lotsa thoughts occupy my mind..
there is obviously the distance...
i guess this is wat it is going to be like from now on...

2007-01-14T07:00:00.000-08:00

so last night was supposed to be in bed early..cos i was very tired..but somehow something lept me awake..den something bugged me to go back to my com and come online..started downloading songs and suddenly i receive a email..saying that i got a frenster msg from someone..before opening the msg my heart was beating damn fast lah..i dunno why..i guess i was afraid to see wat was inside..i replied the msg and den a sms came in..

i really din know that it was going to affect you that bad..frankly, i thought you have moved on and clean forgot me..i seriously thought you had someone else in your life already..well, i really din wan you to feel that ouch when you saw wat you saw..but it was nothing ah..i mean wat you saw was nothing..i mean there is nothing going on..cos i cant move on..i've tried to but i jus cant..when i look at others, it isnt the same way as how i look at you..oh wells.

i've done wat i need to do..its not cos you want me to..but its wat i wana do on my own will..i dun wana hurt you no more..i know i have done enough hurt to you..so yea..i'm sorry. i guess i wont know how you actually feel cos there are many things that i better left unsaid..rather den both of us saying stuff that would prevent either one of us from moving on..so yea..

my mum is sick..been sick..i dunno wats wrong..first she had urine infection den the whole of last night she kept waking up to go to the toilet..whole of today is the toilet day for her..all the plans made to go out were cancelled..rot at home today..except for 4 hours of gaming jus now..wakaka..suppose to go to church but me and bro ended up at the lan shop..hahah..so now i's back home..gotta get ready to turn in..tmr i have a ICA!!!!

nitez all! ;)

2007-01-12T09:42:00.000-08:00

i'm her number 1 fan =)
but i think the best concert is the reminiscene due to some particular reason i got to laugh alot...hahaha...

2007-01-12T00:10:00.000-08:00

today...woke up late!! hahah..AGAIN!! woohoo!! went to school den went to lecture..ended at about 11plus lah..went to sit at mac..watched Night at the Museum on jaslin laptop.funny show..not a bad show after all..watch halfway den went to find cikgu..he passed me a pair of boots..but i forgot to take it!! argh! helped him carry the medic box and match balls to the instruction room cos the guys got match..den went back to mac to continue the show..once the show ended jaslin hadta go off so we went to the stadium to look for filza and sly..den we proceeded to north canteen to sit and talk..den off i went to watch izzy's performance!! so that was how i spent 8 hours today..hahah..

the concert was nice man..the opening was this drum beat thingy..super cool man!! today i laughed alot thanks to izzy..she and shaiful sang this elvis song..and they were dancing!! BUT she was wearing a dress so she hadta dance demurely...super funny..zil and i tried our best to control our laughter..but the video of it still had our laughter in it..wakaka..

it was a nice concert though..great job squidward!!

zack
0010

2007-01-11T05:10:00.000-08:00

yesterday was the bialthon...swam 400m in less den 8 min..haha..after that super tired..thanks to yani and xinyi..people happily swimming the last lap can make joke and den i laughed in the water..short of air..swallow the swimming pool water!! argh..haha..den had a friendly match against police..that match was ok lah..the refree was like watever lor..super irritating!! think he wana be the ref for world cup lah..(according to law 4 in the fifa book.....blah blah blah)so we lost 6-1..although we lost i thought that the team did not bad..yana is our captain man!!! woohoo!! way to go...we're all in this together!! hahah..den went for dinner..izzy and me talked non stop lah..cos apparantly her frens are my frens too..haha..thanks to that KC eeedioit..SQUIDWARD!! haha..came home exactly at 12midnight..msged a birthday wish den went to wish my mum..

woke up late today..wats new?? reached school half an hour late..lessons were ok..got 21/30 for my microecons..and we were talking bout the people who got caught making out in the tutorial rooms thats why the doors are locked now..haha..my tutor din say much lah..all she said that it was passionate and its not about whether they had sex..it was the way that they did it..hahah..like today only my class pay attention to wat she said lor..hahah..

after school went to tamp mall to get the bracelet..den came home..reached home came online for a while den left to fix my leg..chicken pox lor..its not only my left ankle that was injured..the guy said that my left knee went a bit to the left..think i listen to beyonce irreplaceable too much lah..to the left to the left...even my knee also went to the left..and today they took out alot of blood that was causing blockage..argh!! the guy crack my ankle like damn easy..the sound was like as though you hit your head on a cupboard sia...but my knee was the tough one man..the moment it cracked back i almost died lor..super pain...haiya..so now i'm home..dunno wat i wana do now sia...think i shall go read people's blog now..bye

zack
2129

2007-01-10T17:34:00.000-08:00

so blogger ate up my whole entry last night...will post it up again when i decide to get my butt to it...jus wana say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to these 3 people...mummy, fiona and mrs geh...have a nice day...

zack
0928

2007-01-08T21:24:00.000-08:00

help!! i am not used to my bed anymore!! ahhhhhhh...takes me a long long time to actually fall asleep and den i keep waking up...this is bad!! i wan my beauty sleep!!! nnoooooooooooooo!!!!!!

tmr got to swim 400m...thats 8 laps of the school swimming pool..after that i gotta go rinse myself and get ready for the friendly match against police...hope i wont be too tired man!! okiez.should go now..gotta get ready for school..

zack
1328

2007-01-06T23:25:00.000-08:00

i'm back from camp..somehow instead of feeling happy that i get to enjoy bathing in comfort and with hot water, sleep on my bed and all I AM NOT!!! i miss e315 and e308 already..haha..and esp all of my frens..

oh yes..before i forget. big thanks to all those who were involved in organising this camp for us.. and also to everybody that turned up..thank you for this wonderful camp!

DAY 1: went there in the evening..ate dinner..me and izzy drank the fruit punch that was spiked and got high..had to listen to cikgu talk for dunno how long..but it was really long..den we had our ice-breakers..and followed by slumber party..before we all turned in it was the ghost story session..hahaha..i slept at about 4plus that night..wat i heard was that raul slept talk..wakakak..

DAY 2: was woken up by a very irritating alarm clock that made me laugh..haha..no offence lulu but it was really funny lah..got cock crowing and all..7am and i was up and awake..went to bathe den started to get ready..carried the stuff down to the bus and off we went to east coast park. first thing was breakfast..den followed by our games..tug and war and two group games..for all the 3 games..my team came in 1st!!!! yeah man!! den swimming in the sea and our mini soccer games..left the beach at 1pm and came back to school...had our lunch den treasure hunt..the UPTOWN GIRLS came in 1st..hahah..wat to do..we are good..from 5pm till 8pm we were all seperated into out groups to get ready for ladies night(the most happening thing ever) we were only allowed in the party room at about 9.35pm..had our mini-display and performance for our different groups..all of them were really nice lor..RETRO was funny..raul and izzy were damn funny...BEACH BABES was nice..interesting costumes..hahah..HIP HOP was cool man!! ROCK...wah this one i tell you ah...power sia their appearance..couldnt recognise them at first..and last but not least..my group..UPTOWN GIRLS..all our costumes were designed by huda..they were nice man..though they were made up of almost all plastic bags..cool man! 11pm was the official start of our party though..music blasting and lotsa dancing..started off learning the dance for the song from high school musical "we're all in this together" den lotsa dancing man..hahah..basically we were sweating like mad..den izzy came up with an idea to dance in our bras..haha..made a deal with her that if she fold her top into a tube top den i take off my tshirt..wakakka..funny man..after that me dee and fatz cleaned up the place and we knock out till 9am..

DAY 3(the last day): the alarm clock came in again..woke up when the video of ladies night played..den went to bathe and ate..packed up..watch more videos of the previous days..den it was the secret pal gift exchange..and a last minute performace by sha, izzy and lulu for Hanis's birthday..and also the performance by everyone except for hanis for the dance that we learnt while "clubbing"..those who knew hadta dance lah..den those who din jus tried to follow or dance on thier own..hahah..den it was pack up and goodbye..and home sweet home..

damn..i wan another camp!! haha..a longer camp!!! gotta get ready for school tmr and i am tired..so bye all...

zack
1555

2007-01-02T11:42:00.000-08:00

today went to visit popo..she looks better today..she talked to us..she also said that she saw my grandmother and they went to eat fried kway teow at marine parade..moment i heard that i started thinking..and i was sad..losing a person you love is heartbreaking..i dunno..i guess we should treasure them while we can..dun wait till its too late..cos once its gone its NEVER goin to come back..
anyways..mum was on a spending mood today. after visiting popo we went to tamp mall to shop..was supposed to buy my xmas present..in the end she bought me a jacket or should i say 2..haha..cos i saw this jacket which comes in 3 colours, brown, black and purple..i tried the brown one and the black..mum thought it was nice..den she got both so that me and my bro can share..though the brown is mine!! haha..cos mum said he din look good in brown..den we continued walking..mum wanted to buy me a wallet(which i have been wanting to change) cos the one i am currently using is bought by someone..and i wana change my wallet!! but since it was to be for my bday and there was no discount, mum decided that we wait till my bday is nearer den i go choose one again..haha..bought a tshirt though..for chinese new year..den me and bro got a new watch..and finally mum bought me a stainless steel bracelet..she wanted to get the white gold bracelet but i was telling her you mad ah? cos it costs $1008 and after discount it would be like $500 close to 600..dne my bro was like you get her that she wont wear it out of the house..hahahha..no way am i going to wear something that expensive man!! waste of money..so thats about all today..going to go try sleep now..got school tmr man!!!
nitez all..

zack
0352

2007-01-02T11:31:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry i'm not strong enough.
i've been trying to stay away from you.
to not contact you.
but i'm really sorry that i just cant do it.
i maybe smiling but thats jus the exterior.
inside me i'm not in the least bit happy.
sometimes i wana pick up the phone and call you,
or maybe send you a msg or jus anything.
but i think of wat you said to me that morning,
and i force myself to stop and jus fuck off.
i myself dun know how i am feeling.
all i know is that i am not happy.
and i miss you.

zack
0337

2006-12-30T03:19:00.000-08:00

couldn't sleep well..
the words you said jus kept repeatin in my head..
everything that has happened flashed through my mind..
the happy times we had..
the argues we had..
the times i broke your heart..
i lay in bed..
broken hearted..
feeling down..
tears in my eyes..
you told me to fuck off from your life..
i thought to myself..
if that can bring you happiness i would..
its not easy for me i will tell you..
cos i know its not..
you are the one who is on my mind all the time..
now all i can say is i'm sorry..
if you dun wan to be in contact with me anymore..
go ahead..
you have every right..
take care..
and i will and still think of you..
i care for you..
and i want you too..

2006-12-27T08:27:00.000-08:00

finally after a week rest i went for training...super tired man!! haha..went to the changing room first..was talking and opening the locker den all of a sudden lulu came by my side and said thanks...i got a shock and jumped back fell to the floor..went to change den went up for training..the usual crap from izzy and more from lulu...had shaolin soccer with all the sound effects..laughed non-stop..after that was the killer...about 15 to 20 min worth of jogging and jumping and sprinting and wats not...super tired after that..legs can say jelly already...den more kicking and after that to end off was a 2 side game...coach kept making fun cos my legs jelly and wobbly already..
so the soccer camp is on..5th to 7th jan..am in dunno wat group..but i know my theme is uptown girl..oh me oh my...hahha..my mum and all are leaving tmr..so i will be home alone..wakakaka...hmmm..should i be up to mischief or jus be a good girl?? heh heh heh...let me consider...wakakkakaka..
kk..i should go now..bye all..

zack
0033hrs

2006-12-25T12:05:00.000-08:00

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Incomplete

2006-12-25T11:49:00.000-08:00

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

2006-12-25T11:43:00.000-08:00

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

2006-12-25T10:53:00.000-08:00

xmas is officially over...its boxing day..wells..this year xmas was boring..stayed home the whole of xmas eve excpet for dinner and den to visit my grandmother den went for midnight mass...my cous and his frens came too and proceed to my palce to drink...from about 2 plus we drank till 6 ah..den i went to sleep at 6 plus 7....woke up in the afternoon and off to my nanny's house to celebrate her bday and xmas..fell asleep there and got woken up to go to my grandpa house..stayed there for about half and hour den we left..and now here is am at home..bored to tears..hahah..think i should go sleep now..good nights!
oh ya! MERRY XMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!
kristiana: who are you?? i really dun have any idea who you are....

zack
0257

2006-12-20T07:29:00.000-08:00

so my nights have been bad..been a really light sleeper and wake up at the slightest sound..getting to sleep is already a bad thing..being sick is not nice at all..wakaka..anyways today sth happened..bad bad bad..my bro got bitten by our neighbour's dog..it attacked my bro for no reason..and yea..i was like shocked and very worried..den my neighbour took us to the doctor and he is ok..had to get a jab though..but he is fine..so thats good..
isn't it amazing how news spread so fast? kinda amazing...jus thinking of it..how cool.i dun believe that you din say anything..damn shit! i heard more things and thanks for putting words into my mouth..i am sick and tired of defending myself and i dun really give a shit no more..so it is up to you all watever you all wana believe..i know wat i have done.i know wat i did wrong.i know that i do not need to defend myself to have a clear conscious..

my heart is sore..
i am trying my best..
but am i strong enough?
can i be strong enough?
i jus wana say all these out...
i miss you so much my luv.

zack
2338

2006-12-18T10:40:00.000-08:00

nsync-i drive myself crazy
Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me
You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I've only got myself to blame

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

Why didn't I know it
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance

I drive myself crazy

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

2006-12-18T01:13:00.000-08:00

my chemical romance-all i want for christmas is you
I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
I don’t want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby
I wont ask for much this Christmas
I wont even wish oh I wont even wish.
I wont even wish for snow.
I’m just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play
Cause I just want you here tonight,
Holdin on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shinin surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children’s laughter fills the air
And everyone is singin' oh I hear those sleigh bells ringin'
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me
Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m askin for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you, you, its you, you, oh baby
All I want is you
You, you, you, you, you

2006-12-17T20:33:00.000-08:00

been feeling down for the past few days...jus some songs for that special someone who will always have a place in my heart...

mariah carey-don't forget about us
(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...

Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

Now everytime I see youI pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
So why you act like you don't know how this lovin' used to be?
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC
Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

dashboard confessional-stolen
We watch the season pull up its own stakes
and catch the last weekend of the last week
before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only grand farewells
crash the best one of the best ones
clear liquor and cloudy eyed too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
one good stretch before our hibernation
our dreams assured and we all will sleep well, sleep well,
sleep well, sleep well, sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

Watch you spin around in your highest heels
you are the best one of the best ones
we all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

2006-12-07T08:38:00.000-08:00

its the 8th today..
thinking bout stuff is hurting...
but i know i gotta do this...
i wish you know i still care...
i do still think of you...

though i may seem alright,
i know deep inside.
my heart is bleeding,
my world is falling,
my soul is leaving,
my babe i'm losing.

zack
0045

2006-12-03T22:51:00.000-08:00

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
I'vebecome so numbI can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
And I knowI may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

2006-11-27T09:38:00.000-08:00

today i messed up..i totally screwed up..yupp..and i dun even know why i threw my temper..i guess i was jus upset..i know that i is not a good reason but it happened..i was really happy when you said that you were going to meet me..but when you said that you can dun meet i dunno why..its like as though sth jus pierce you in your stomach and the big ouch was there..yea..i messed up big time..and all i wana say noe is that I AM SORRY!! really sorry..i know i cant turn back time..but i know that i will do watever it takes to make up to you..
so lets see..today had match..the final match for POL-ITE..we lost to ITE..not sure about the final scoreline though...first half was fine lah...den second half hahahahhaha...nach fell on me..think she stepped on my knee and her hand that she used to support herself was pressin against my stomach...den my right ankle started to hurt..oh wells..i dunno...this sucks..hahah..i have like koyok all over my body now..oh wells..i gtg..i wana go rest or sth...

i have never taken you out of mind..
you have and will be my top priority..
i miss you alot..
i hope you know that...
i hope you feel the same way i do..
i love you..

zack
0139

2006-11-23T02:32:00.000-08:00

Ain't no other woman that could take your spot my..

If I wrote you a symphony
Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do)
If I told you, you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular (tell me would you?)
Well baby, I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you (say I do)

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting on the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Aint gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be…

My love (so don't give away)
My love (so don't give away)
My love (so don't give away)
Ain't no other woman that can take your spot
My love
My loooooooveLoooooove
My looooove
My loooooove

Now if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile at every word I wrote (what would you do?)
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team (tell me would you?)
See, what's the point in waiting anymore
Cuz girl, I never been more sure (that baby, it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you've been waiting for (just say it, I do)

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting on the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Aint gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be…

My love (so don't give away)
My love (so don't give away)
My love (so don't give away)
Ain't no other woman that can take your spot
My love
My loooooooveLoooooove
My looooove
My loooooove

aIright it’s time to get it JT
I don’t know why she hesitate for man
Shorty, cool as a fan
On the new once again
Still has fans from Peru to Japan
Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
But if you got a man, try to lose him if you can
Cause the girls world wide throw they hands up high
when they wanna come and kick it wit a stand up guy
trust me you don't really wanna let the chance go by
Because you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
France is so fly I can go fly
Private, cause I handle my B-I
They call me candle guy, simply because I am on fire
I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try
You don't come, I ain't gonna die
Hold up, what you mean, you can't go why?
Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie
You say you wanna kick it, when i aint so high
Well baby,its obvious that I ain't your guy
Ain't goin lie, I feel your space
But forget your face, I swear I will
Same park, same bullet anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting on the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Let me make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Aint gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be…

My love (so don't give away)
My love (so don't give away)
My love (so don't give away)
Ain't no other woman that can take your spot
My love
My loooooooveLoooooove
My looooove
My loooooove

2006-11-23T02:16:00.000-08:00

was at home the whole of today..argh!!! cos i am not well..oh wells..i am getting better..i dun care! by hook or by crook...tmr i will be fine..hahah..kk..monday my bro followed me to school cos he wanted to watch NYP vs NP..but it was cancelled! yupp..we were all ready and fully prepared but due to lightning and stuff it was cancelled..but it was fun lah..cos in the end we had fun on the field playing a little 2 side game..hahah..
yesterday had training..and wat do you get when you put me, izzy and yani in the same group?? a whole lot of nonsense..wakaka..we were supposed to walk and we ended up modelling and den pose...haha..was funny lah..den fil say she cant kick the ball..but when i was standing far far away..suddenly kaboom!! my left butt check got whack!! super hard or wat?? still say cant kick the ball..kk..
thats bout all..shall go now!! i am bored!!!!!!!!!

zack
1817

2006-11-15T08:36:00.000-08:00

had my first match representing NYP today...played against ngee ann poly...final score 4-nil...was suppose to be more goals to us lah...cos we were really attacking and attacking..but well..at least we won..
hmmm..have work tmr den match against ITE on friday..hope i wont be too tired lah..haha..oh wells..tmr i am working at dempsey road..THINK it is from 5 ah...not sure :) heh..den end wat time also i dunno..wakaka..haiyah..doesnt matter lah..jus work only..haha..
kk..am getting sleepy..so i am goin to turn in now..good nite all..

how i wish u know how i feel...

zack
0035

2006-11-12T11:52:00.000-08:00

us behind the wheelbarrows...
see the load that we had?? it was 3times more....

junk between us...

2006-11-12T11:43:00.000-08:00

hey all..its 3 am in the morning now...i haven sleep yet..cos me and bro cleaned our hall and our room..yupp..threw lots and lots and lots of things away....superly alot of junk..so we were packing and packing den we look at our room floor and oh my gosh!! filled with all the stuff that we wanted to throw..after packing up our tables and cupboards den we took tired to stuff the junk into boxes but there were still lots more..
bro had a brillant idea..why not we use a cupboard and load the things onto it den we carry and throw it at the junk area? so we did..load everything onto the cupboard and den we lifted it..DEN crack...the cupboard broke..so no more transportation of junk to the junk area..walked to the guard house to see if got trolley..worse come to worse we would push the bin to our house and den push it back..BUT on the way there we saw like 8 wheelbarrows outside our neighbour's house..so we borrowed it without permission den we cleared our junk..
bro and me couldnt stop laughing...imagine 2 kids pushing wheelbarrows filled with junk at 2am in the morning...haha..kk..i should go sleep now..feeling tired..nits all..oh ya!! pics..enjoy!

zack
0315

2006-11-02T08:30:00.000-08:00

wakaka..i walk like a superly slow person now..and i think it is kinda retarded lor..haha..first was my right ankle that got injured den today during the friendly match kana the other one..hahah..we lost today..man!! cikgu said they were small and fragile..but no lor..they were so not..super rough sia..and they run like super fast..haha..first played my normal position den shidah got injured so dee became the keeper so i became left back..and i was like super new to that position lor..dunno wat to do..ask izzy den she tried not to laugh at me sia..den at like that last 5 min ah...i got injured..oh wells..i am super tired now..so i am going to finish my tutorials den go and sleep..so nitez all!!

zack
0029

2006-10-29T09:15:00.000-08:00

this song is for that special someone..you know who you are..

Threw some chords together
The combination D-E-F
Is who I am, is what I do
No one’s gonna let it down for you
Try to focus my attention
But I feel so A-D-D
I need some help, some inspiration
(But it’s not coming easily)
Whoah oh…

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Don’t you know, don’t you know, don’t you know?
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you…

Read some Byron, Shelly and Keats
Recited it over a Hip-Hop beat
I’m having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines
I know I had some studio time booked
But I couldn’t find a killer hook
Now you’ve gone & raised the bar right up
Nothing I write is ever good enough

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better sayI love you, I love you…

I’m getting off my stage
The curtains pull away
No hyper bowl to hide behind
My naked soul exposes
Whoah.. oh.. oh.. oh.. Whoah.. oh..

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There’s no other way
To better say
I love you…I love you, is that okay…?

2006-10-28T18:22:00.000-07:00

morning world..am awake already..washed my mum's car already..am ready to go out now..wakaka...i know i haven been blogging for a long time jus cause i was lazy..haha..oh wells..so lets see..nothing much happened to me la..jus that on thursday i was sick..
hmmm..friday after school went out with yani, shaf and kai...den we went to lido to collect the slow retard's uniform den we went off..oh ya..met this guy, kai's fren la..think his name is shamed ah..not sure la..well well..had an interview on friday too..now i am jus waiting for their call..so thats about it la..haha..went back to school had training and after tat i came home and knock out..that was at bout 11 plus 12 ah..den at 1 plus close to 2 i woke up feeling so awake..forced myself back to sleep cos it was too early man...den finally i woke up at 6..wakaka..den i went to nani's place to makan..her mum's cooking very nice sia..it was suppose to be for all the non-muslims in the class to come but only 6 of us turned up..pathetic sia..we ate and slack there..watch mtv and talk crap..left the place at i think 6 ah..and we reached at like 2..hahha..so yea..had fun..den after tat i went home to chnage and went to near my grandpa house to play soccer..played against some ppl la..at first we were using my ball..but they felt that it was too hard and i yet i was happily ramming it..wakaka..fun or wat..oh wells.
training on monday and tuesday..den match on thursday..i am still thinking bout whether i should play this wednesday...hmmm..shall think about it again..for now..bye!
zack
0925

2006-10-25T09:39:00.000-07:00

pissed off..fucking pissed...be thankful that you are not here with me now...cos i swear that if you were i would have whacked the shit out of you..i dun care who you are..i jus dun give a fuck..get out of my life..i hate you!! bloody bitch!! i swear that i have lost all the respect i had for you..you know wat?? you remind me of someone i know..let me compare...

was a fucking bitch: both of you are
ruin my life: both of you do
loves lying: my my..its like your past-time
cheats on ppl: oh my gosh..you all have the highest percentage of getting AIDS..better practise safe sex...
invades privacy: bingo!! another common thing!
say you care but you dun: oh me oh my..its like you guys are meant for each other...
act like the god damn motherfucking innocent party: mediacorp looking out for ppl like you all!!
makes my blood boil: no wonder im always hot...
i have no respect for: oh yeah!! its all out of the window!!
made this fall upon you: not my fault that you all itchy backside...

so..i guess i am right!! maybe you guys should jus go be together...its like heaven made couple...congrats!! you did make me upset..you spoiled my life...i have got no respect for you anymore..take care..and move bitch get out of the way bitch..

zack
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