couldn't sleep well..
the words you said jus kept repeatin in my head..
everything that has happened flashed through my mind..
the happy times we had..
the argues we had..
the times i broke your heart..
i lay in bed..
broken hearted..
feeling down..
tears in my eyes..
you told me to fuck off from your life..
i thought to myself..
if that can bring you happiness i would..
its not easy for me i will tell you..
cos i know its not..
you are the one who is on my mind all the time..
now all i can say is i'm sorry..
if you dun wan to be in contact with me anymore..
go ahead..
you have every right..
take care..
and i will and still think of you..
i care for you..
and i want you too..

finally after a week rest i went for training...super tired man!! haha..went to the changing room first..was talking and opening the locker den all of a sudden lulu came by my side and said thanks...i got a shock and jumped back fell to the floor..went to change den went up for training..the usual crap from izzy and more from lulu...had shaolin soccer with all the sound effects..laughed non-stop..after that was the killer...about 15 to 20 min worth of jogging and jumping and sprinting and wats not...super tired after that..legs can say jelly already...den more kicking and after that to end off was a 2 side game...coach kept making fun cos my legs jelly and wobbly already..
so the soccer camp is on..5th to 7th jan..am in dunno wat group..but i know my theme is uptown girl..oh me oh my...hahha..my mum and all are leaving tmr..so i will be home alone..wakakaka...hmmm..should i be up to mischief or jus be a good girl?? heh heh heh...let me consider...wakakkakaka..
kk..i should go now..bye all..

zack
0033hrs

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Incomplete

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

xmas is officially over...its boxing day..wells..this year xmas was boring..stayed home the whole of xmas eve excpet for dinner and den to visit my grandmother den went for midnight mass...my cous and his frens came too and proceed to my palce to drink...from about 2 plus we drank till 6 ah..den i went to sleep at 6 plus 7....woke up in the afternoon and off to my nanny's house to celebrate her bday and xmas..fell asleep there and got woken up to go to my grandpa house..stayed there for about half and hour den we left..and now here is am at home..bored to tears..hahah..think i should go sleep now..good nights!
oh ya! MERRY XMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!
kristiana: who are you?? i really dun have any idea who you are....

zack
0257

so my nights have been bad..been a really light sleeper and wake up at the slightest sound..getting to sleep is already a bad thing..being sick is not nice at all..wakaka..anyways today sth happened..bad bad bad..my bro got bitten by our neighbour's dog..it attacked my bro for no reason..and yea..i was like shocked and very worried..den my neighbour took us to the doctor and he is ok..had to get a jab though..but he is fine..so thats good..
isn't it amazing how news spread so fast? kinda amazing...jus thinking of it..how cool.i dun believe that you din say anything..damn shit! i heard more things and thanks for putting words into my mouth..i am sick and tired of defending myself and i dun really give a shit no more..so it is up to you all watever you all wana believe..i know wat i have done.i know wat i did wrong.i know that i do not need to defend myself to have a clear conscious..

my heart is sore..
i am trying my best..
but am i strong enough?
can i be strong enough?
i jus wana say all these out...
i miss you so much my luv.

zack
2338

nsync-i drive myself crazy
Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me
You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I've only got myself to blame

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

Why didn't I know it
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance

I drive myself crazy

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

my chemical romance-all i want for christmas is you
I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
I don’t want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby
I wont ask for much this Christmas
I wont even wish oh I wont even wish.
I wont even wish for snow.
I’m just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play
Cause I just want you here tonight,
Holdin on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shinin surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children’s laughter fills the air
And everyone is singin' oh I hear those sleigh bells ringin'
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me
Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m askin for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you, you, its you, you, oh baby
All I want is you
You, you, you, you, you

been feeling down for the past few days...jus some songs for that special someone who will always have a place in my heart...

mariah carey-don't forget about us
(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...

Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

Now everytime I see youI pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
So why you act like you don't know how this lovin' used to be?
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC
Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

dashboard confessional-stolen
We watch the season pull up its own stakes
and catch the last weekend of the last week
before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only grand farewells
crash the best one of the best ones
clear liquor and cloudy eyed too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
one good stretch before our hibernation
our dreams assured and we all will sleep well, sleep well,
sleep well, sleep well, sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

Watch you spin around in your highest heels
you are the best one of the best ones
we all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

its the 8th today..
thinking bout stuff is hurting...
but i know i gotta do this...
i wish you know i still care...
i do still think of you...

though i may seem alright,
i know deep inside.
my heart is bleeding,
my world is falling,
my soul is leaving,
my babe i'm losing.

zack
0045

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
I'vebecome so numbI can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
And I knowI may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be