i'm sorry i'm not strong enough.
i've been trying to stay away from you.
to not contact you.
but i'm really sorry that i just cant do it.
i maybe smiling but thats jus the exterior.
inside me i'm not in the least bit happy.
sometimes i wana pick up the phone and call you,
or maybe send you a msg or jus anything.
but i think of wat you said to me that morning,
and i force myself to stop and jus fuck off.
i myself dun know how i am feeling.
all i know is that i am not happy.
and i miss you.

zack
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