lets jus say today was fucked up..yupp..it was totally fucked up!
i am feeling fucked up...and there is nothing that can be doen to make me feel better...
so it all started with OC..the show was kinda shitty last night..everything was going wrong..i dun like it cos i feel that it is wat is happening to my life now..everything.EVERY FUCKING THING IS GOING WRONG!!!! hate wat i hafta go through..sometimes i wished that i was never even born at all..i jus dun wana be me!! this me that i have become..a me that is sad and trys very hard to be happy..a me that comes home and starts thinking of everything that has happened..hate this life lah...i wana go to somewhere i can jus shout and let things all out..i jus wana break down once and for all..i jus wan every bit of saddness out of me! i jus wana be the me that i was when i was a kid...a me with no worries or troubles..but that can never come true..argh!!
ok..so after OC i couldnt sleep...i lay in bed looking at pics and listening to music..and all of a sudden before i knew anything..my eyes were filled with tears and my head was filled with sweet memories of me and that special someone..i drifted into sleep and woke up..went to school den slacked all the way till 3 plus..during that time i was at macs with all the loners...dee and me feeling superly bored went to the roadshow that the sports and wellness seniors setup...
she did 50 push ups and i did 45..she broke the old record of 10..haha..
den we did the lunges..old record 30 in 1 min...she did 35 and i did 40..haha
next was sit ups..old record 45..she did 53..woot woot..i din bother doing..wakaka..cos i jus ate..
and finally was bench press using the 10lbs dumbells per side...she did 17 and i did 25..the old record was 10..wakka..
so in the end the record board was filled with only our names..yupp! den i went to the hockey pitch to play soccer..fell down and scrapped my knee..stopped playing and went to relax..got ready for training..den we palyed two side...injured my toe?? sth like that...made my way home..and now i am sitting in front of the com..feelin the same..i wana feel better!!! i need to feel better badly...i dun wan me feelin this way to get ppl affected...argh!!