so last night was supposed to be in bed early..cos i was very tired..but somehow something lept me awake..den something bugged me to go back to my com and come online..started downloading songs and suddenly i receive a email..saying that i got a frenster msg from someone..before opening the msg my heart was beating damn fast lah..i dunno why..i guess i was afraid to see wat was inside..i replied the msg and den a sms came in..

i really din know that it was going to affect you that bad..frankly, i thought you have moved on and clean forgot me..i seriously thought you had someone else in your life already..well, i really din wan you to feel that ouch when you saw wat you saw..but it was nothing ah..i mean wat you saw was nothing..i mean there is nothing going on..cos i cant move on..i've tried to but i jus cant..when i look at others, it isnt the same way as how i look at you..oh wells.

i've done wat i need to do..its not cos you want me to..but its wat i wana do on my own will..i dun wana hurt you no more..i know i have done enough hurt to you..so yea..i'm sorry. i guess i wont know how you actually feel cos there are many things that i better left unsaid..rather den both of us saying stuff that would prevent either one of us from moving on..so yea..

my mum is sick..been sick..i dunno wats wrong..first she had urine infection den the whole of last night she kept waking up to go to the toilet..whole of today is the toilet day for her..all the plans made to go out were cancelled..rot at home today..except for 4 hours of gaming jus now..wakaka..suppose to go to church but me and bro ended up at the lan shop..hahah..so now i's back home..gotta get ready to turn in..tmr i have a ICA!!!!

nitez all! ;)