wats up with all the cancellations today?? like shit lah...argh!!! total waste of my money...haha...lets see..so far today i experienced 4 cancellations..first was when it exactly passed midnight..i reached home and told my mum that i will have dinner with her and send her off den go for the soccer finals..but she said dun need to send her..thats 1...the second was when i told my bro that i got him a ticket to watch the finals..den he said that he dun wan to go..that ticket costs me 7 bucks man...so much for me being nice to him..wtf!!! argh..den this morning cant wake up..was late for my class..took a cab to school and on the way to school i checked my phone...lesson was cancelled!!! happily wasted 10bucks..bloody hell...reached school and i realised that i din bring the room key...rushed back home and back to school agian..on the way back to school...national dental center called to say that my appointment is cancelled..so now i am in school..ALONE!! cos my loner buddy not in school...shida went home..squidward is doing project and shaf is in camp...

damn it lah shaf!!! i miss you lah..dun go for camps...i got alot of things to tell you...msg me asap!!! feels weird to be in school without you man!!! its like i got nobody to talk nonsense to...nobody to listen to all my crap..why you so like that ah? why you so like that leh?? have to live the next 3 days without my best fren..boohoohoo!!!

its already wednesday..tmr is thursday..tmr is THE DAY...the day that i dread..i wish that tmr will never come..that way i wont hafta be at the airport..that way i wont hafta bid farewell to my senior..to my fren...to the one who was there for me..the one whom gives me encouragement and never fails to make each training session a happy session...every match a nice match..DEWI..please dun go!!! please.... =''(
from the bottom of my heart..i wish you a very safe journey..all the best in everything that you are going to do..you will never be forgotten..i will never say goodbye..cos i know that someday..somehow and somewhere..we will meet again..so to you my fren and senior..see you again..you will be deeply missed..not only by me but by all the whooshies..take good care of yourself..come back to visit us..IF NOT...i will go there to visit you..haha..

dewi...my senior and friend whom will be missed alot...

i wrote a song for her...and den it was den edited by shaf...this is the lyrics...

Ms Dewi
I cant believe how fast time flies
It seems like yesterday
You told us you’re leaving
And now it’s really time for you to go
You’re going somewhere far
And leaving us behind

Even though you’re leaving
I just want you to know that
You will never be forgotten
(Never be forgotten)
All the joy that we had
Will be kept close to our hearts
(Close to our hearts)

I’m glad to have a friend like you
Whom we can share all the moments together
I know that we cant have another you
Simply cause dewi, you’re irreplaceable

Even though you’re leaving
I just want you to know that
You will never be forgotten
(Never be forgotten)
All the joy we had
Will be kept close to our hearts
(Close to our hearts)

I will never say goodbye to you now
Cause I know that we’ll meet again
So to you my friend
My lovely Miss Dewi
We’ll be right here waiting for you
When you come home

Even though you’re leaving
I just want you to know that
You will never be forgotten
(Never be forgotten)
All the joy we had
Will be kept close to our hearts
(Close to our hearts)

i'm sorry everyone for making you guys cry..and i am sorry that i couldnt control till after my performance...it was like i was up on the stage and singing...den when i looked at dewi in her eyes...i could see the tears welling up...looked at the rest of you guys..and most of you had tears rolling down your cheeks..especially tat squidward!!! got dunno wat wrapping her face..and it really struck me for the millionth time..that dewi is really leaving..looking at her and meaning every word that was coming out from my mouth...jus caused the tears to roll down..

i know that i am going to miss having dewi around..the senior tat i joke with and really have fun...things are going to change...but i know that when she comes back..she will be welcomed back with arms wide open by all of us...
we're going to miss you alot!!!!

today had training..my kicks sucked..everything sucked..first was my nose that was running..den plus the cool air i like cant breathe..but that was only a small thing..it din affect me much..wat was the killer was the first time i kicked the ball..my last week injury came back...the same damn pain when i move all my toes from my 2nd toe onwards...the bloody pain that is at the bone and is shooting in..that affected my kicking cos it really hurt and i could step on it properly...but i refuse to go to polyclinic for a check up..cos i dun wana know wat happened to it..i got a bad feeling..oh wells..am jus going to wait till after the league to go and check out wat happened...
wanted to go to the chinese sensei that i always go...but i cant..cause my mum is making noise..as it is really taxing ah..imagine every visit is about 40bucks..and i hafta go there at least once in 2 weeks...seriously lah...argh..hopefully cikgu is going to the one is JB soon...den i can go with him..that would be cheaper lah..
i suddenly feel not fit to play for the league..i dunno why but i feel that i am out of touch..even though i have been going for trainings often and regular...argh!! i dunno lah...i hope that the damn injury wont affect me during the leagues...i really hope that it wont..shit lah..this sucks...

i jus feel like msging you..cos i miss you...
but i guess its best if i dun...
hope that you can move on and be happy..
cos knowin that you are smiling would be good enough for me...

hey all...sorry about the previous entry..haha..jus ignore it..unless you are the one that the entry was for..
you know sometimes you jus wana do something but you jus cant do it?? you know how that feeling feels like right?? i am feeling it now..it sucks...oh wells..too bad i cant do it..or should i say for now?? haha

yea..the happiness that i am lookin for is not attainable..its not cos i haven found it..but is cos someone ruin it...
sometimes people dun know the hurt and damage they caused as they are too fucking selfish..they dun give a damn about others..not even family..so much for blood is thicker than water...i dare to say this to your face...my frens treat me better den how you do..all you ever do is make use of people..

thing is the whole truth is out..everything that you have done..so dun go around saying that i am fucking blaming you..cos i know, you know and everyone knows that i am not blaming you...i am jus merely stating facts..

after 17 years of living, i suddenly got a curfew? i really like to know why...haha..cos i was getting really close to her and you are not happy with you..you were getting jealous of the closeness that we had...the closeness that you can never get..so obviously you trying to protect wat you thought was yours, told my mum and ka-boom!! the curfew was implied!! wow...great job done!! you get to spend more time with her...

wats with the callin of my mum to find out where i am and who i am out with for?? jus cos you thought that she was out with me?? hahahaha...paranoid!! typical over possesive freak!! so much for saying that you never told the family...ya right i believe you!! kiss my ass man!! The whole family thinks that i stole her away from you..they saw me as the third party..but did they know that you and her were over long long ago?? did you tell them? hahah...wat a joke!
wat happened between us was a totally mutual thing...so chill man! dun go round saying you can't stand the family and yet on the other and try to act goodie with them..come on man.think about things...when did you stand up and defend her when the family was talking bad stuff bout her?? wait a minute..have you ever?? hahaha..doubt you have..cos you hafta be an angel...

i knew my mistakes and have changed my ways....i know never ever to trust anyone..especially people who treat you so nice when they need you and once your help is no longer needed, they dump you aside...i've taken a step back and seen the whole picture...and i know that i would do anything to avoid seeing you or even have anything to do with you...cos you make me feel disgusted...jus so you know..you will have already been forgiven for everything you've done...but I CAN NEVER FORGET WAT YOU'VE DONE!!! i have stopped giving you the respect that i've once given to you as my cousin...and i no longer treat you like my cousin...dun even think about fren..you will jus be a stranger..total stranger...so mind your own business and dun interfere with my life...

if i ever find out that you poke your stinking nose into my business..i won't hold back in whacking the shit out of you..afterall who are you to me? you're no longer my cousin...hahah..
i mean wat i say...so dun try me..unless you feel like getting whacked..

my best fren and me at the stadium..


all smiles...


a bunch of them trying to act like how i am...CUTE!!


so it was boring....


so boring until SQUIDWARD can pick her nose...hah

wonder who is this with the hat...


hmmm..looks familiar...


oh..its lulu


wah...so excited!!!


a group photo..on the way to macs

yesterday...the number 1 fan title was taken away from me..cos i woke up late and izzy's performance was pushed forward...but not my fault!!! cos I WAS NOT INFORMED!!!!!haha..made in time for lady zy's performance den i rushed my project within an hour and the whole way was slacking for me!!! hahahah....went for taufik's concert in school..was nice lah...not bad...haha..after tat went to my nanny's place...

woke up at 11.15am this morning..took my shower and left for school..haha..got my number 1 fan title back!! woot!! haha..went to school to listen to a beautiful voice singing two songs..wakaka...if you guys wan the video den meet me online and get from me k?
oh ya...linc is super preetty lah...really!! haha..she is superly preetty...hahah..think almost everyone will agree with me when i say that she is preettty...wakaka..so now i'm home. waiting for time to pass den i will be making a move to meet the rest of the whooshies at kallang mrt to go support singapore when they play against malaysia later...

i'm glad that now you know...
you wana make hell go ahead...
cos i'm going to tell you this..
I DUN GIVE A FUCK NO MORE!!
go tell my mum, shawn, sis and family..
as it is..you have already made life miserable for me..so adding abit more won't hurt anymore..
by the way..i have yet to thank you for everything you've done.
THANKS! and now its time for you to FUCK OFF..
dun ask my bro about me and try to act all concern and shit..
just mind your own business..

woke up latetoday...went to school! actually i rushed to school cos the number 1 fan was almost late for izzy's performance..haha..wah lao i tell you ah.that squidward sing damn nice lah..made my hair stand..haha..den i was at macs..met my classmate and we did project...super boring..had so much time to kill cos i was waiting for hady mirza's concert..went for the concert..he only sang 2 songs..but it was a fun and nice and entertaining performance lah..haha..so yea..den i am home!!

i hope to see you soon..cos i really miss you..
i dun wana stay away from you anymore..
cos even as a fren i think that we can meet at least once in a while..
hope your papa is feeling better..

lets jus say today was fucked up..yupp..it was totally fucked up!
i am feeling fucked up...and there is nothing that can be doen to make me feel better...
so it all started with OC..the show was kinda shitty last night..everything was going wrong..i dun like it cos i feel that it is wat is happening to my life now..everything.EVERY FUCKING THING IS GOING WRONG!!!! hate wat i hafta go through..sometimes i wished that i was never even born at all..i jus dun wana be me!! this me that i have become..a me that is sad and trys very hard to be happy..a me that comes home and starts thinking of everything that has happened..hate this life lah...i wana go to somewhere i can jus shout and let things all out..i jus wana break down once and for all..i jus wan every bit of saddness out of me! i jus wana be the me that i was when i was a kid...a me with no worries or troubles..but that can never come true..argh!!
ok..so after OC i couldnt sleep...i lay in bed looking at pics and listening to music..and all of a sudden before i knew anything..my eyes were filled with tears and my head was filled with sweet memories of me and that special someone..i drifted into sleep and woke up..went to school den slacked all the way till 3 plus..during that time i was at macs with all the loners...dee and me feeling superly bored went to the roadshow that the sports and wellness seniors setup...
she did 50 push ups and i did 45..she broke the old record of 10..haha..
den we did the lunges..old record 30 in 1 min...she did 35 and i did 40..haha
next was sit ups..old record 45..she did 53..woot woot..i din bother doing..wakaka..cos i jus ate..
and finally was bench press using the 10lbs dumbells per side...she did 17 and i did 25..the old record was 10..wakka..
so in the end the record board was filled with only our names..yupp! den i went to the hockey pitch to play soccer..fell down and scrapped my knee..stopped playing and went to relax..got ready for training..den we palyed two side...injured my toe?? sth like that...made my way home..and now i am sitting in front of the com..feelin the same..i wana feel better!!! i need to feel better badly...i dun wan me feelin this way to get ppl affected...argh!!

if you dun wana contact me anymore...go ahead.
i dun wana be the one who is stopping you from moving on...
i dun wana be the one who hurts you anymore...
cos i have done enough to you..
sorry cant undo the things that i have done..
sorry cant undo the lies that i told..
i jus wana see you happy..
i jus wana be happy..
but i know i cant...
not anytime soon at least...
cos when you left i lost a part of me...
sometimes i ask myself..
do i regret expressin my feelings for you?
and i realise that i dun..
cos i really do feel how i felt..
up till now...

i miss you..

somethings in life, one can't control...
no matter how much you want it to come true...
if it can't happen, it can't happen...
no use trying to force it, that's wat is called fate..
one just gotta accept fact, cos nothing can be done..

as for me, i have accepted the fact..
but i cant get over it, i cant face it.
i wana be there for you, even if it means jus as frens..
but can i face it when you move on?

as it is now, i think of you all the time..
stopping myself from msging you is hard..
try my best to be occupied so that i wont think..
i cant move on, i am stuck here..
hoping that a miracle can happen..

frankly, i dun think i can take it..
cos for now its already eating me up..
slowly but surely...
yes, somethings are better left unsaid...
somethings are better left undone..

would it be better if i pretend that i am fine?
or would it be better if i show you that i still care?

friday...went to school as usual..jus that din go for lecture..went to study accountings for assets..me and shaf were loners at macs..till dee and shidah came down to join us..woohoo!! the loner club rocks man!! you guys should join...membership fee is now $10 per month (usual price $50 per month) hahahahahha...anyways at 2pm we went for our ICA..the paper was easy if you know how to do it..BUT i din..hahah..so yea..expect the worse man! wakkaka...
stayed at macs till bout 4 plus ah...transfer videos..den i headed home and den back to school for the damn after school party..which was not happening at all..bloody hell!! jam and hop at the school hall was more happening lah..imagine tat..oh my gosh..fucking waste of time!! plus that asshole kai got himself so goddamn high till he got kicked out..went to my nanny's house to stay..fell asleep outside on the sofa and my bro was on the floor..haha..only woke up at 6 am and shift into the room...

today met miss piggy, dee, shidah and fateha at far east...sorry i was so late k? haha..den we chilled at starbucks...the last time i chilled there was like erm..last year?? when i met raul and lulu to talk..haha..man!! that was a long loooooonnnng time ago man..ooh lala..den we headed to school..the train was a halal train lah..haha.there is a story to it..but i will update another day alright?too tired now..there will be pics too..haha..thank you for you kind understanding and co-operation..sorry for the inconvinence caused.hahah.got the stuff ready for the match..den when we were warming up the bloody lightning hadta come..so the match din start till bout 7 plus plus..haha..ref was fucked up!! super shithead curry..bias like nobody's business..BUT the final score was 2-nil to us..dinner as usual..den am home!! feeling sleepy and tired..so i think i should go dudu now..nights all..

oh yea..before i really go and sleep...all those broken hearted souls out there who really love someone but jus cant be with that certain someone due to any reason as a matter of fact..go listen..its a nice song..
as for me..watching the video itself already brings me memories..hearing the song jus makes it all...SENTIMENTAL!! i dunno lah..it jus means alot to me lah..cos that person really means alot to me..arhg!! i am starting..so bye all!!

i shouldn't love you but i want to
i just can't turn away
i shouldn't see you but i can't move
i can't look away
i shouldn't love you but i want to
i just can't turn away
i shouldn't see you but i can't move
i can't look away

and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not
'cause i don't know how to make a feeling stop

just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and i can't help it
i won't sit around, i can't let him win now
thought you should know
i've tried my best to let go of you
but i don't want to
i just gotta say it all
before i go
just so you know

it's getting hard to be around you
there's so much i can't say
do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way

and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not
'cause i don't know how to make a feeling stop

just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and i can't help it
i won't sit around, i can't let him win now
thought you should know
i've tried my best to let go of you
but i don't want to
i just gotta say it all
before i go
just so you know

this emptiness is killing me
and i'm wondering why i've waited so long
looking back i realize
it was always there just never spoken
i'm waiting here...been waiting here

just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and i can't help it
i won't sit around, i can't let him win now
thought you should know
i've tried my best to let go of you
but i don't want to
i just gotta say it all
before i go
just so you know

Happy day!!!

reached school late!! haha..slept through my first lesson..den had my breakfast and den was suppose to meet dee and shidah outside mac..but wait and wait and wait...too long so i went in first..met izzy inside instead..den i went for my next lesson..which was a total waste of time..cos i went in walked behind my tutor and gave her a shock cos i wanted to tell her that i was present..den all the way i was listening to song,writing lyrics and reading newspaper..haha..

OH YES!!! anyone knows the world record of drinking a big cup of drinking milo-peng?? if you all know please tell me..cos dee can drink it all down in 13 seconds...that bloody fool..haha..

anyway..went to northland secondary to watch some netball match..but only caught the last few mins..den after that me, yani, dee and dewi went to dewi's house to get the videos of our camp into dee's laptop so that i can meet her and she can pass it over to me tmr so that i can burn...at the same time we were learning the high school musical dance..haha

(if i am blabbering..and you dun wana read anymore...jus come back another day..today the mind is not functioning..too many thoughts..too tired..)

den we left to meet lulu at bishan mrt..actually she jus board the same train as us...the best thing that happened today...LULU GOT PRANKED!!!haha..went to city hall to eat den after that walked to marina square to look for a present tat dewi wanted to get..but we ended up bowling..haha..there were 6 of us..dee,dewi,lulu,fateha,zil and me..so we had a deal that the ultimate loser(the one with the lowest score) will hafta do a silly and ugly face den we take picture..but zil had whipped cream in her bag..so hahahhaha...fateha was the ultimate loser lah..haha..funny..cannot paly with lulu cos she likes to creep behind you and give you a shock..and me and zil were getting paranoid..kept looking back..haha..lulu den treat us to mac 50cent ice cream..took pics..den more pics and more pics...haha..den we headed home..now i am home..feelin very very sleepy..

before i end..i am feeling sad again..dunno why..argh!! maybe i know part of the reason..but the other part...i dunno..haha..
got my exam time table..exam dates 23/2, 26/2, 27/2, 01/3..it is after chinese new year and after my birthday..does that mean that i cant have fun?? haiz...dunno lah...
think i should go now..before i start saying things that i know i should not be saying..so yea..bye..good nights..

fucked UP day!!

as the title says it all..so tat was wat is was for me yesterday..woke up and hour before i was supposed to..saw my sis using the com..and all i did was jus look at the table to see if my bro took the mp3 den my sis jus turned to me and said see wat? got fed up and went back to sleep..wat the bloody hell lah..den woke up again at 9 to get ready for school..as it is i was already super tired cos i only had 4 hours of sleep the night before..board the bus and den a msg came in...CLASS WAS CANCELLED!!!! damn it lor..i was already in the bus to school!!

came to school and act cool..being a bloody loner..finally i met dee and we chilled..den me, wati and dee went to ang mo kio to play pool..watever wati!! say dunno how to play but in the end win us lor..went back to school and went for training..

training was in the rain yesterday..or at least part of it was..we were totally drenched and our jerseys were heavy..my pants almost felt like dropping..haha!! after training..lulu lost her shoe!! haha..she left it in the toilet..den she couldnt find it..wore an extra pair that was in the locker den we all headed for yishun to makan!! in the end Zil took lulu's shoe..haha..

i din go hoem yesterday!! haha..it was a last minute thing lah..cos i realised i had no fren to go back home with..and it was a really long journey..so i decided to stay at my nanny's house..wakaka..reached there and i knocked out straight away..

so woke up at 9 this morning..dragged my ass out of bed to go to school..although my class starts at 6pm...cos thanks to me!! being super forgetful..took izzy's wallet home..haha..den i was super sleepy..ate breakfast cum lunch..and slacked..haha..talked to kah hui about our project..

oh ya..people..go check out the NYP soccer blog..see the photo of the day..haha..shidah already msg her not to sleep if not she watch out..but but but!!! she still went to sleep..haha..poor izzy..think we can start a DISTURB SQUIDWARD club for her lor..haha..

went to peni with dee and shidah today..cos dee wanted to buy soccer boots..saw a boot that i like..but no money!! argh..haha..den we were bored and din know where to go..so we headed to marina square...played pool!! before that we kinda got lost..and yes! i cant spot signs well..haha..den we headed home...feeling sleepy man!! should i go take a nap?? think i should..bye.

hey hey...wana say big thanks to all of you guys for making fateha's birthday a success!! especially the sabo-ing part! sorry for the very short notice on wat stuff to get for her and thank you all for making the effort to get them..

today school finished at 4..thought suppose to go to submit the league forms for cikgu..but he did it already..so i went to eat lunch den headed to the stadium to watch the guy's match..den went for training..played 2 side all the way..no coach no cikgu..jus us and us..haha. after training we had the surprise birthday celebration and the sabo-ing..poor squidward also kana..although it was not her birthday..wakaka..den was shower time and makan at yishun BK..and here i am home!

haha..another night which i was supposed to sleep early..but i din..haha..was online till god knows wat time..den watched my videos and download songs..in school now..BORING!!! argh..wana go off..dunno learning wat about powerpoint..super boring..shall go play game now..bye!!

lotsa thoughts occupy my mind..
there is obviously the distance...
i guess this is wat it is going to be like from now on...

so last night was supposed to be in bed early..cos i was very tired..but somehow something lept me awake..den something bugged me to go back to my com and come online..started downloading songs and suddenly i receive a email..saying that i got a frenster msg from someone..before opening the msg my heart was beating damn fast lah..i dunno why..i guess i was afraid to see wat was inside..i replied the msg and den a sms came in..

i really din know that it was going to affect you that bad..frankly, i thought you have moved on and clean forgot me..i seriously thought you had someone else in your life already..well, i really din wan you to feel that ouch when you saw wat you saw..but it was nothing ah..i mean wat you saw was nothing..i mean there is nothing going on..cos i cant move on..i've tried to but i jus cant..when i look at others, it isnt the same way as how i look at you..oh wells.

i've done wat i need to do..its not cos you want me to..but its wat i wana do on my own will..i dun wana hurt you no more..i know i have done enough hurt to you..so yea..i'm sorry. i guess i wont know how you actually feel cos there are many things that i better left unsaid..rather den both of us saying stuff that would prevent either one of us from moving on..so yea..

my mum is sick..been sick..i dunno wats wrong..first she had urine infection den the whole of last night she kept waking up to go to the toilet..whole of today is the toilet day for her..all the plans made to go out were cancelled..rot at home today..except for 4 hours of gaming jus now..wakaka..suppose to go to church but me and bro ended up at the lan shop..hahah..so now i's back home..gotta get ready to turn in..tmr i have a ICA!!!!

nitez all! ;)

i'm her number 1 fan =)
but i think the best concert is the reminiscene due to some particular reason i got to laugh alot...hahaha...

today...woke up late!! hahah..AGAIN!! woohoo!! went to school den went to lecture..ended at about 11plus lah..went to sit at mac..watched Night at the Museum on jaslin laptop.funny show..not a bad show after all..watch halfway den went to find cikgu..he passed me a pair of boots..but i forgot to take it!! argh! helped him carry the medic box and match balls to the instruction room cos the guys got match..den went back to mac to continue the show..once the show ended jaslin hadta go off so we went to the stadium to look for filza and sly..den we proceeded to north canteen to sit and talk..den off i went to watch izzy's performance!! so that was how i spent 8 hours today..hahah..

the concert was nice man..the opening was this drum beat thingy..super cool man!! today i laughed alot thanks to izzy..she and shaiful sang this elvis song..and they were dancing!! BUT she was wearing a dress so she hadta dance demurely...super funny..zil and i tried our best to control our laughter..but the video of it still had our laughter in it..wakaka..

it was a nice concert though..great job squidward!!

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yesterday was the bialthon...swam 400m in less den 8 min..haha..after that super tired..thanks to yani and xinyi..people happily swimming the last lap can make joke and den i laughed in the water..short of air..swallow the swimming pool water!! argh..haha..den had a friendly match against police..that match was ok lah..the refree was like watever lor..super irritating!! think he wana be the ref for world cup lah..(according to law 4 in the fifa book.....blah blah blah)so we lost 6-1..although we lost i thought that the team did not bad..yana is our captain man!!! woohoo!! way to go...we're all in this together!! hahah..den went for dinner..izzy and me talked non stop lah..cos apparantly her frens are my frens too..haha..thanks to that KC eeedioit..SQUIDWARD!! haha..came home exactly at 12midnight..msged a birthday wish den went to wish my mum..

woke up late today..wats new?? reached school half an hour late..lessons were ok..got 21/30 for my microecons..and we were talking bout the people who got caught making out in the tutorial rooms thats why the doors are locked now..haha..my tutor din say much lah..all she said that it was passionate and its not about whether they had sex..it was the way that they did it..hahah..like today only my class pay attention to wat she said lor..hahah..

after school went to tamp mall to get the bracelet..den came home..reached home came online for a while den left to fix my leg..chicken pox lor..its not only my left ankle that was injured..the guy said that my left knee went a bit to the left..think i listen to beyonce irreplaceable too much lah..to the left to the left...even my knee also went to the left..and today they took out alot of blood that was causing blockage..argh!! the guy crack my ankle like damn easy..the sound was like as though you hit your head on a cupboard sia...but my knee was the tough one man..the moment it cracked back i almost died lor..super pain...haiya..so now i'm home..dunno wat i wana do now sia...think i shall go read people's blog now..bye

zack
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so blogger ate up my whole entry last night...will post it up again when i decide to get my butt to it...jus wana say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to these 3 people...mummy, fiona and mrs geh...have a nice day...

zack
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help!! i am not used to my bed anymore!! ahhhhhhh...takes me a long long time to actually fall asleep and den i keep waking up...this is bad!! i wan my beauty sleep!!! nnoooooooooooooo!!!!!!

tmr got to swim 400m...thats 8 laps of the school swimming pool..after that i gotta go rinse myself and get ready for the friendly match against police...hope i wont be too tired man!! okiez.should go now..gotta get ready for school..

zack
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i'm back from camp..somehow instead of feeling happy that i get to enjoy bathing in comfort and with hot water, sleep on my bed and all I AM NOT!!! i miss e315 and e308 already..haha..and esp all of my frens..

oh yes..before i forget. big thanks to all those who were involved in organising this camp for us.. and also to everybody that turned up..thank you for this wonderful camp!

DAY 1: went there in the evening..ate dinner..me and izzy drank the fruit punch that was spiked and got high..had to listen to cikgu talk for dunno how long..but it was really long..den we had our ice-breakers..and followed by slumber party..before we all turned in it was the ghost story session..hahaha..i slept at about 4plus that night..wat i heard was that raul slept talk..wakakak..

DAY 2: was woken up by a very irritating alarm clock that made me laugh..haha..no offence lulu but it was really funny lah..got cock crowing and all..7am and i was up and awake..went to bathe den started to get ready..carried the stuff down to the bus and off we went to east coast park. first thing was breakfast..den followed by our games..tug and war and two group games..for all the 3 games..my team came in 1st!!!! yeah man!! den swimming in the sea and our mini soccer games..left the beach at 1pm and came back to school...had our lunch den treasure hunt..the UPTOWN GIRLS came in 1st..hahah..wat to do..we are good..from 5pm till 8pm we were all seperated into out groups to get ready for ladies night(the most happening thing ever) we were only allowed in the party room at about 9.35pm..had our mini-display and performance for our different groups..all of them were really nice lor..RETRO was funny..raul and izzy were damn funny...BEACH BABES was nice..interesting costumes..hahah..HIP HOP was cool man!! ROCK...wah this one i tell you ah...power sia their appearance..couldnt recognise them at first..and last but not least..my group..UPTOWN GIRLS..all our costumes were designed by huda..they were nice man..though they were made up of almost all plastic bags..cool man! 11pm was the official start of our party though..music blasting and lotsa dancing..started off learning the dance for the song from high school musical "we're all in this together" den lotsa dancing man..hahah..basically we were sweating like mad..den izzy came up with an idea to dance in our bras..haha..made a deal with her that if she fold her top into a tube top den i take off my tshirt..wakakka..funny man..after that me dee and fatz cleaned up the place and we knock out till 9am..

DAY 3(the last day): the alarm clock came in again..woke up when the video of ladies night played..den went to bathe and ate..packed up..watch more videos of the previous days..den it was the secret pal gift exchange..and a last minute performace by sha, izzy and lulu for Hanis's birthday..and also the performance by everyone except for hanis for the dance that we learnt while "clubbing"..those who knew hadta dance lah..den those who din jus tried to follow or dance on thier own..hahah..den it was pack up and goodbye..and home sweet home..

damn..i wan another camp!! haha..a longer camp!!! gotta get ready for school tmr and i am tired..so bye all...

zack
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today went to visit popo..she looks better today..she talked to us..she also said that she saw my grandmother and they went to eat fried kway teow at marine parade..moment i heard that i started thinking..and i was sad..losing a person you love is heartbreaking..i dunno..i guess we should treasure them while we can..dun wait till its too late..cos once its gone its NEVER goin to come back..
anyways..mum was on a spending mood today. after visiting popo we went to tamp mall to shop..was supposed to buy my xmas present..in the end she bought me a jacket or should i say 2..haha..cos i saw this jacket which comes in 3 colours, brown, black and purple..i tried the brown one and the black..mum thought it was nice..den she got both so that me and my bro can share..though the brown is mine!! haha..cos mum said he din look good in brown..den we continued walking..mum wanted to buy me a wallet(which i have been wanting to change) cos the one i am currently using is bought by someone..and i wana change my wallet!! but since it was to be for my bday and there was no discount, mum decided that we wait till my bday is nearer den i go choose one again..haha..bought a tshirt though..for chinese new year..den me and bro got a new watch..and finally mum bought me a stainless steel bracelet..she wanted to get the white gold bracelet but i was telling her you mad ah? cos it costs $1008 and after discount it would be like $500 close to 600..dne my bro was like you get her that she wont wear it out of the house..hahahha..no way am i going to wear something that expensive man!! waste of money..so thats about all today..going to go try sleep now..got school tmr man!!!
nitez all..

zack
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i'm sorry i'm not strong enough.
i've been trying to stay away from you.
to not contact you.
but i'm really sorry that i just cant do it.
i maybe smiling but thats jus the exterior.
inside me i'm not in the least bit happy.
sometimes i wana pick up the phone and call you,
or maybe send you a msg or jus anything.
but i think of wat you said to me that morning,
and i force myself to stop and jus fuck off.
i myself dun know how i am feeling.
all i know is that i am not happy.
and i miss you.

zack
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